Ok, so, here I go trying to recap a week in short paragraph. Ok...so the first thing that happened was I continued to workout every consistatntly. Yep thats right. I worked out every morning last week - actually except for Thursday, but I made it up by going in the evening with Sherley. So all was well. I checked off tons of things on my todo list like, things with the dentist, talking to teachers, meeting with my boss, and preparing for Tamu's return - ON SUNDAY WOOOO! Yep thats right, MY BABY will be holding me as of this SUNDAY AFTERNOON! I am soo excited! So yep. :) That is a HUGE PLUS. EVerything else could go wrong, but the fact that my Baby is coming will keep me happy :). MWah to you honey.
Let me take a couple of sentences just to show how much I have prepared for home boy's return. 1) I have called out of work for the entire first week of February. 2) Since I proctor every week, I have found someone to take my Proctor shift for Wednesday night of that week so that i don't have to be away from my Baby for 4 hours. 3) I switched duty nights with one of the people on my Staff so that I can be off duty for the week. 4) I completed 50% of my homework (a week ago) for work that is due Next week. 5) I have washed clothes that he has kept storing in my room since his departure. 6) I have brought some suitcases home so that my room can look less cluttered for his arrival. 7) I have coordinated with Family members so that we can give him a goodbye party (that he knows about..don't worry..im not spoiling it by putting it here ;P) and last but not least 8) I have been prepareing myself physically for his return, thats right..im in my prime and I am GLOWING :) Which every girl wants to be doing when they are going to see their man - whom they haven't seen for so long. Yep thats right, I want everything to be PErFeCT so that we can get the most out of the time we have together. :) So I still have to finish up the other half of Next week's homework and I will good..good to go!
But aside from the return of my Baby, I have not so good news. So you know the filling I had done last week?! Well it came back to bite me right in the butt cause the doctor put it too close to a nerve. I was in severe severe pain all of Saturday night into Sunday. As soon as I got off the phone with Tamu, I had so much pain in my mouth that I not only couldn't sleep, but couldn't hold back tears. I started crying and called my parents and told them that I am in so much pain and I don't know what to do. My Dad came immediately and took me to the emergency room where they gave me the strongest medication EVER! It was crazy....but it took away 80% of the pain. SO that was good. After that I agreed to sleep home with my family. My Dad took me back to my dorm before going home to get some things that would make me feel more confortable while I was at home..so I grabbed a couple of books to read, and my pilliow with the pillow case of my Baby. That made me feel better. I got medicated for all of Sunday and slept for what turned out to be 12 HOURS. lol. Probably more too...im just rounding off. hehe. But yeah, it felt good. I talked with my Baby some on the phone and he encouraged me that I was going to be ok. My parents made me soup and hot cereal since it was the only thing I could eat. And Trina and Neil just sat around and talked with me to keep me company while I layed on the couch the entire day half drowzy and dizzy from the medication. I threw up a couple of times cause I was so dizzy, and then slept my way right into Monday. As soon as Monday I took off to the dentist (at 10 am cause I had talked with him on their emergency phone the night before). But when I got there, I found out that he had an emergency and couldn't come in till 12:00...and then other crap happened) UGh...anyway..to make a long story short, I conferenced with another dentist and then my doctor came in to do what came to be a root canal at 2:00 that evening. I was in soo much pain..I thought i was going to pass out. But, with God as my helper, I made it through.
Tamu prayed for me/with me over the phone. And it felt soo good! It made me feel so relaxed and I was just so at ease when he did that with me. MWah to you Baby once again.
So after my mini operation, I was back at home sleepy as heck. I tried to sleep more but I couldn't cause I kept getting dizzy. So I walked around in an attempt to feel better. And it eventually worked. Meanwhile, my wonderful mom went out and got me a blow up bed so I didn't have to be subjected to sleeping on the couch - which probably was my source of headaches. The blow up bed was soooo comfortable, it was unbelieveable. And at this point my teeth and head was feeling much better. So I called Tamu and we talked while watching Bushes State of the Union speech together. We did this until I got tired and then I went to go lay back down on my beautiful blow up bed :). We then talked some more till he had to go eat dinner. So I hung out wit my bro and we laughed and talked for a while. We joked while he cooked dinner and then we joked some more while I watched him eat...since I couldn't eat myself cause of my sore mouth :(. But all was well. Later I talked with my Baby once again and we said how much we love each other, and then I took my shower and headed off to bed.
It was a glorious sleep. I smelled delicious and felt amazing :)
Lord Jesus, thank you for perserving me once again, and thank you for making Victorious despite everything :)
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
The Blues....
So....today wasn't such a good day at all...but yeah..let me start with the past weekend.
Friday into Saturday I cried so much. I know..I know..I'm such a punk! But I couldn't help it. I missed my baby so much. I needed his touch, his hold, his kiss, his comfort. I needed to talk to him and to see him. I needed to share the weeks past joys with him. But I couldn't. I was very heart broken over that fact, and I hibernated in my room once again.
I have been going to the gym a lot lately. I have lost 8 pounds so far. During the week, Sherley would call me and want to go to the gym, so I would reluctantly say fine...and go with her in the evenings. They have been good workouts even though I didn't want to do them in the beginning. Its amazing how much better I feel after working out. I get to think about all the good things and how much Tamu loves me. I get to study notes from my best class...African American Studies and as a result learn more than I can even imagine. I get to listen to soft music that clears my mind, and last but not least I get to talk to Sherley who always makes me laugh and makes the time go by so much faster. Working out every morning and every other afternoon for another week has been good :).
I have had a million things to do as of late. I have needed to do programs, homework, work, workouts, schedule family time, do reading just for me, and make time for residents within my residential hall..some of which have depression issues. Oh and make dental time for myself. Its been a lot at times, and I have been slightly stressed out.
This past Saturday, I finally made it to the dentist to get my teeth cleaned. Now anyone who knows me, knows I have this GINORMOUS fear of the dentist. Every-time I go I swear they treat my gums like its a sidewalk...and just scratch carelessly at them and subject them to excessive bleeding. So yeah..I'm just not a fan. Anywho..I managed to muster up enough courage to finally go. My heart had hurt so much over Tamu not being here, that I figured I could take whatever pain they could inflict. I thought, whatever pain they could inflict on me would be much less then the pain of not being with my baby. If I could survive him not being here...I could do ANYThing! I figured that I should schedule the appointment while I was in this mood. And I also rationalized that I want to have teeth when I get older lol. Anywho, I got my teeth cleaned and I was blessed to have a wonderful dentist. He was very gentle and helpful and cleaned my teeth well. As my baby would say.."he gave it the love it deserved." So that was the good side of things....The bad side starts with the news that I had 3 cavities. I had One large one and 2 very small ones. So I rationalized the same way I did for the cleaning. Thats right...I marched back there on Monday at noon and got the big one filled. On this Saturday I get the two other small ones done. It was cool and fast. And I got a white filling so that you can't even see it. It looks like they did nothing to my teeth...although..it definitely feels like they did. :(. Anyway..after this.. I will have gotten all this out of the way. Oh and another plus is that I have been flossing a lot. :)
So yeah Thats how the week started with my mouth in pain. I kept taking every pain killer I could find. From tylenol, to Aspirin, to more Aspirin, to Motrin. Motrin of which is the only thing that really truly worked. Up until today, my mouth has produced so much pain that I have been unable to sleep. I have had to sit up and try to stay awake as long as I possibly could. Monday night..I had to get up and walk around just so my mind could be taken off the pain. Today I took a mid day nap and it was the same senerio. It was too painful to sleep. So I popped in two more pills and I finally was able to sleep in peace. Meanwhile..while this whole mouth pain was going on, I developed strong paralyzing pain around my kidneys. It got so painful that I had to stop walking and I had a hard time breathing. The pain was so survere I had to leave class and go to the health center for an emergency. The doctors looked at me and signed me up for an ultrasound at the hospital on Friday so that they can make sure I don't have a kidney stone or whatever. And then I got some chest pains. Sigh..Ugh.just another thing on my plate I have to worry about. There were two doctors counseling with me. One said that it just could be me working out muscles that I haven't for a while, while the other said that I need to checked immediately. So..yep..thats where I'll be 10:00 on Friday. This sucks!! Truly!! Ugh. But oh well. God willingly its nothing. I was feeling so down and in pain all over...So I called my baby to feel encouraged. But yeah..it only brought me more tears. At that point I was completely and utterly stressed, and I had no words of encouragement. :(.
So yeah..that was me today. After drugging up, I took a long nap, and then got up in time for my Staff meeting at 9:30pm. After the staff meeting, I met sherley at the gym and we worked out for only an hour and 1/2. It was nice and relaxing though. I was just in a straight-up mood. Like if anyone said anything to me that was bull...they would surely know about it. tehehe. Yup that was my day. It's about 12:50 in the morning and I should be doing homework to get ahead..but Im tired..so I am going to shower and get into bed.
So since I had all these negatives...the positives are: I got into Spain for Summer 2 semester, I did really really good on my African American Studies quiz today, I survived the days disappointments and Im doing alright, and Jesus has never stopped loving me.
Friday into Saturday I cried so much. I know..I know..I'm such a punk! But I couldn't help it. I missed my baby so much. I needed his touch, his hold, his kiss, his comfort. I needed to talk to him and to see him. I needed to share the weeks past joys with him. But I couldn't. I was very heart broken over that fact, and I hibernated in my room once again.
I have been going to the gym a lot lately. I have lost 8 pounds so far. During the week, Sherley would call me and want to go to the gym, so I would reluctantly say fine...and go with her in the evenings. They have been good workouts even though I didn't want to do them in the beginning. Its amazing how much better I feel after working out. I get to think about all the good things and how much Tamu loves me. I get to study notes from my best class...African American Studies and as a result learn more than I can even imagine. I get to listen to soft music that clears my mind, and last but not least I get to talk to Sherley who always makes me laugh and makes the time go by so much faster. Working out every morning and every other afternoon for another week has been good :).
I have had a million things to do as of late. I have needed to do programs, homework, work, workouts, schedule family time, do reading just for me, and make time for residents within my residential hall..some of which have depression issues. Oh and make dental time for myself. Its been a lot at times, and I have been slightly stressed out.
This past Saturday, I finally made it to the dentist to get my teeth cleaned. Now anyone who knows me, knows I have this GINORMOUS fear of the dentist. Every-time I go I swear they treat my gums like its a sidewalk...and just scratch carelessly at them and subject them to excessive bleeding. So yeah..I'm just not a fan. Anywho..I managed to muster up enough courage to finally go. My heart had hurt so much over Tamu not being here, that I figured I could take whatever pain they could inflict. I thought, whatever pain they could inflict on me would be much less then the pain of not being with my baby. If I could survive him not being here...I could do ANYThing! I figured that I should schedule the appointment while I was in this mood. And I also rationalized that I want to have teeth when I get older lol. Anywho, I got my teeth cleaned and I was blessed to have a wonderful dentist. He was very gentle and helpful and cleaned my teeth well. As my baby would say.."he gave it the love it deserved." So that was the good side of things....The bad side starts with the news that I had 3 cavities. I had One large one and 2 very small ones. So I rationalized the same way I did for the cleaning. Thats right...I marched back there on Monday at noon and got the big one filled. On this Saturday I get the two other small ones done. It was cool and fast. And I got a white filling so that you can't even see it. It looks like they did nothing to my teeth...although..it definitely feels like they did. :(. Anyway..after this.. I will have gotten all this out of the way. Oh and another plus is that I have been flossing a lot. :)
So yeah Thats how the week started with my mouth in pain. I kept taking every pain killer I could find. From tylenol, to Aspirin, to more Aspirin, to Motrin. Motrin of which is the only thing that really truly worked. Up until today, my mouth has produced so much pain that I have been unable to sleep. I have had to sit up and try to stay awake as long as I possibly could. Monday night..I had to get up and walk around just so my mind could be taken off the pain. Today I took a mid day nap and it was the same senerio. It was too painful to sleep. So I popped in two more pills and I finally was able to sleep in peace. Meanwhile..while this whole mouth pain was going on, I developed strong paralyzing pain around my kidneys. It got so painful that I had to stop walking and I had a hard time breathing. The pain was so survere I had to leave class and go to the health center for an emergency. The doctors looked at me and signed me up for an ultrasound at the hospital on Friday so that they can make sure I don't have a kidney stone or whatever. And then I got some chest pains. Sigh..Ugh.just another thing on my plate I have to worry about. There were two doctors counseling with me. One said that it just could be me working out muscles that I haven't for a while, while the other said that I need to checked immediately. So..yep..thats where I'll be 10:00 on Friday. This sucks!! Truly!! Ugh. But oh well. God willingly its nothing. I was feeling so down and in pain all over...So I called my baby to feel encouraged. But yeah..it only brought me more tears. At that point I was completely and utterly stressed, and I had no words of encouragement. :(.
So yeah..that was me today. After drugging up, I took a long nap, and then got up in time for my Staff meeting at 9:30pm. After the staff meeting, I met sherley at the gym and we worked out for only an hour and 1/2. It was nice and relaxing though. I was just in a straight-up mood. Like if anyone said anything to me that was bull...they would surely know about it. tehehe. Yup that was my day. It's about 12:50 in the morning and I should be doing homework to get ahead..but Im tired..so I am going to shower and get into bed.
So since I had all these negatives...the positives are: I got into Spain for Summer 2 semester, I did really really good on my African American Studies quiz today, I survived the days disappointments and Im doing alright, and Jesus has never stopped loving me.
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
The Start of a New Week
So...lets see. Well Monday started off with a snow storm. The city declared it an emergency and canceled all day and evening classes at the University. Which is crazy by the way, cause if you new Northeastern, you would know that they NEVER...I mean NEVER close. So yeah, I was quite amazed. I actually couldn't believe it and woke up 3 times just to check my text messages to make sure I saw correctly. (since the whole Virgina Tech thing happened Northeastern now sends text messages to every students cell phone in case of emergencies). I think its quite useful. This way I don't have to check the news and wait hours just for them to go through each of the schools names that are closed. Ugh I hated those days. Anywaz...back to the bottom line..which is I GOT sLeEp! and a day off from classes. I didn't wake up until 11:00. I set my alarm to wake up early to go to the gym. But I didn't even hear it at all. Ever since my baby has been gone..I have been sleeping so deeply..that I don't even know what is going on. hehe. One of my residents was pounding music last night...and they were like "im soo sorry Vicky.." And im like "sorry for what..I didn't hear nuthin." and she was like "we were right next door to you.." and I was like "really..wow..well I guess u lucked out this time.." I thought it was as quiet as a bug hehe. Anywaz...back to the reall issue hehe...I got to relax on Monday.
As soon As I woke up I did some writing here, then I went to the gym, ate lunch, and then did homework the the entire rest of the day. Oh wait while eating I watched an episode of Big Shots..which is my third or fourth favorite show. But yeah. In the middle of my homework, I tried to take a nap but I kept opening my eyes and looking at my baby's computer, so I got up and surfed the net and then did more homework.
Having my Baby's computer here is so theraputic for me. Its the latest version of the Mac and it is great! Everytime I see it, it reminds me of him and just reminds me that he is here with me :). I never thought I could have this connection to a computer but I do. Anyway..having it...I just want to do the things I always saw him doing on it..like watch political lunch and international news, and read as much as I can... I love his computer...I love him. Mwah to you Baby!
So yeah...by around 1:00am........Yes..i was up that late. I just wasn't tired. Anyway, at around 1:00am I called Tamu and we talked on the phone for probably an hour or so. It was so great to hear his voice. It made me soo happy. :). So in a short I believe Im doing better. Each day gets a little better. Last night we agreed to say that he will be home in 3 weeks rather than 21 days. The three weeks sounded a lot better. :).
So Tuesday - today..started out really really well! I woke up at 5:00am, I packed my stuff and went to the gym. I worked out until 7:30, and left in time enough to grab breakfast and print out a paper at the library. I was even able to get to my 8am class 10 minutes early. It was a great morning. Everything was just so organized. So that was good. I had a good class and like I predicted..i was the only one who did the reading and had anything to contribute in class. I mean it wasn't everyones fault..the teacher didn't send the reading until like 10 or 11:00 last night. I just happened to read the whole thing cause it was so interesting. It was about Fredrick Douglass. It was written by David W. Blight who is now a professor at Columbia University. David Blight focused on the emancipation as the source of national regeneration. It was a beautifully written essay. Some of the inspiring quotes are;
"History [is] a primary source of identity, meaning and motivation. [Douglass] seemed acutely aware that history was both burden and inspiration, something to be cherished and overcome. Douglass also understood that winning battles over policy or justice in the present often required an effective use of the past."
Douglass commented:
"for it is not well to forget the past...Memory was given to man for some wise purpose The past is....the mirror in which we may discern the dim outlines of the future and by which we may make them more symmetrical."
Good sigh...isn't that beautiful!? And it is soo true. I have not heard it put better. Don't you want to keep reading!? And I had a chance to read all 30 pages of it! So needless to say..I may enjoy this stuff :). I am so much happier with my classes this semester. I dropped acting..cause it was Wack!! and then i dropped computer science cause I want my baby's help with it so I can get a straight A! So yeah I replaced it with Business Government and African American Studies..and I LOVE IT! YEY.. In my next post I will tell you of even more exciting quotes and go into my opinion of them :). So besides that...I am here at work right now its like 2:50. So yeah this afternoon will just be hmk hmk..maybe walk and hmk. Oh and can you believe it baby, my staff meeting got moved to 9:30 at night cause some knuckle head decided to have a late class. Sigh. eh well..what ya gonna do!? I will be back soon. Got to go actually do work :P
BABY I LOVE U!!!
As soon As I woke up I did some writing here, then I went to the gym, ate lunch, and then did homework the the entire rest of the day. Oh wait while eating I watched an episode of Big Shots..which is my third or fourth favorite show. But yeah. In the middle of my homework, I tried to take a nap but I kept opening my eyes and looking at my baby's computer, so I got up and surfed the net and then did more homework.
Having my Baby's computer here is so theraputic for me. Its the latest version of the Mac and it is great! Everytime I see it, it reminds me of him and just reminds me that he is here with me :). I never thought I could have this connection to a computer but I do. Anyway..having it...I just want to do the things I always saw him doing on it..like watch political lunch and international news, and read as much as I can... I love his computer...I love him. Mwah to you Baby!
So yeah...by around 1:00am........Yes..i was up that late. I just wasn't tired. Anyway, at around 1:00am I called Tamu and we talked on the phone for probably an hour or so. It was so great to hear his voice. It made me soo happy. :). So in a short I believe Im doing better. Each day gets a little better. Last night we agreed to say that he will be home in 3 weeks rather than 21 days. The three weeks sounded a lot better. :).
So Tuesday - today..started out really really well! I woke up at 5:00am, I packed my stuff and went to the gym. I worked out until 7:30, and left in time enough to grab breakfast and print out a paper at the library. I was even able to get to my 8am class 10 minutes early. It was a great morning. Everything was just so organized. So that was good. I had a good class and like I predicted..i was the only one who did the reading and had anything to contribute in class. I mean it wasn't everyones fault..the teacher didn't send the reading until like 10 or 11:00 last night. I just happened to read the whole thing cause it was so interesting. It was about Fredrick Douglass. It was written by David W. Blight who is now a professor at Columbia University. David Blight focused on the emancipation as the source of national regeneration. It was a beautifully written essay. Some of the inspiring quotes are;
"History [is] a primary source of identity, meaning and motivation. [Douglass] seemed acutely aware that history was both burden and inspiration, something to be cherished and overcome. Douglass also understood that winning battles over policy or justice in the present often required an effective use of the past."
Douglass commented:
"for it is not well to forget the past...Memory was given to man for some wise purpose The past is....the mirror in which we may discern the dim outlines of the future and by which we may make them more symmetrical."
Good sigh...isn't that beautiful!? And it is soo true. I have not heard it put better. Don't you want to keep reading!? And I had a chance to read all 30 pages of it! So needless to say..I may enjoy this stuff :). I am so much happier with my classes this semester. I dropped acting..cause it was Wack!! and then i dropped computer science cause I want my baby's help with it so I can get a straight A! So yeah I replaced it with Business Government and African American Studies..and I LOVE IT! YEY.. In my next post I will tell you of even more exciting quotes and go into my opinion of them :). So besides that...I am here at work right now its like 2:50. So yeah this afternoon will just be hmk hmk..maybe walk and hmk. Oh and can you believe it baby, my staff meeting got moved to 9:30 at night cause some knuckle head decided to have a late class. Sigh. eh well..what ya gonna do!? I will be back soon. Got to go actually do work :P
BABY I LOVE U!!!
Monday, January 14, 2008
My weekend
This weekend was pretty good I must say. It was very productive and I got to talk with my Baby of course. This made me happy despite my overall sadness that I can not physically hold him right now. But at the moment, I am doing much better with that sadness.
On Saturday, I hibernated in my room ALL DAY. I know it was crazy. I haven't done that since hight school, hehe. And even then it wasn't total hibernation by myself because there would always be family coming in and out. But yeah, Saturday was my alone time seriously. I woke up around 10:00am and then I took a refreshing shower and sat down at my honey dips computer and began to work. (btw honey dip is another one of the names I have for you my mu - mu) :). So yeah I worked on hmk for Contemporary Black Politics, Business Government, and then English and African American Studies. Meanwhile my baby got on meebo, and we were able to video conference chat while I worked. While I worked on homework, he worked on his RA re-application. It was great! I felt him with me the entire time. We laughed and made faces at each other, and blew each other kisses and gave each other electronic hugs hehe, and we talked about current events. It was good stuff. I learned that in the biotechnological field, scientists have already started experimenting with human reproduction of animals. Yep thats right...its crazy!! I had no idea, but scientist already have human female hosts that have been injected with animal sperm. Another words, they have human females trying to grow gorilla and chimpanzee babies. It is a hot mess in my opinion. It is quite terrible. UGh! But yeah that was something just interesting to gross you out. haha. But yeah the issue of debate was whether or not the biotechnological field should be loosely or tightly regulated. I think that laws should restrict a lot of the research that is going on or that biotechnology wants to conduct in the future - such as cloning and breading animal babies from human beings. I don't think that the field of biotechnology is capable of regulating itself at all in terms of its conduct and ethics. But the author of the article thinks other wise.
Anywho...after that we talked and worked and talked and worked all day. Until like 6 or 7 in the evening. Then my baby finally told me to go eat and I did at the dinning hall. There I ran into a couple of my residents and had to eat with them cause one girl kept pressing :(. hehe. But yeah it was nice..I just wanted to eat alone though. Anywho..I came back to my baby and talked with him till he had to leave. His Dad was coming to pick him up and he was headed to a lacrosse game and snow-shoeing. Which was exciting. Check out his blog to see/read. But yeah..I did something bad..and I cried when he left. I couldn't control my tears at all. Sigh..All day I felt that he was right here beside me so much so that I forgot he was away physically. So it caught me off guard when he had to go...and I cried. I felt so bad for crying..I didn't want to make you sad honey..just know that I love you and I miss you and I am doing alright. I may cry at times...but I am holding up and waiting for you! MWAH. I am so happy that I have forever with you. This way we can make up for the time that we are away from each other. mwah.
But yeah after that episode..I pulled myself together..completed my homework, and headed off to the gym at like 9 or so. I had a great workout. I worked out for 2 1/2 hours. It was really good, and made me feel better. Then I came back and took a nice long shower. After that I surfed the net some and found some awesome jobs btw..baby I will send them to you. I found some for both of us..as backups :). And then when I couldn't hold out anymore I went to sleep. It was a good rest.
Sunday - I woke up at 7. I woke up to some knuckle heads prank on a student. I don't even want to say the prank to give anyone else ideas. But the point was I was sooo angry....and yelled at the girl and the boys that were involved! I even scared them to high heavens by telling them of the possible repercussions. And this was while I was still part sleep walking lol. What!? 7am on a SUNDAY is EARLY! shoot! Anywho....after that episode...my Dad came to pick me up and take me home for Bible Study. I got home at like 9am and Bible study doesn't start till 11:45, so I talked with my Bro for an hour...and found out about the restart of his relationship, and then I went jogging for 45 mins.. It felt nice to jog around my home area. I hadn't done that since I was a sophomore and now I am officially a senior.
So when I came home I showered and my mom taught me how to season chicken. (I have been taking lessons on how to cook from her so that has been going well). Then we had Bible Study and a family meeting about finances. At around 3:00 I drove Trina and Neil to the mall and we all laughed and joked. It was good to be with them. It really showed me that the reason both of them were acting hostile (for lack of a better term) towards me was because they really missed me. So yeah...:). As my Tamu would say "oh...when family loves you." hehe. After that we came home and I ate dinner and talked with my mom. We talked and then did homework together. I brought out my business government book and jumped on her bed to read, and she brought out her managerial accounting book and studied on her desk. It was nice to do hmk with my mom. She out lasted me though, cause I fell asleep until 10:00 - when I had to leave. My brother drove me back on campus and we talked more about his relationship..so that was good. I am excited for him. I just want him to allow the Lord to lead him and for him to be happy and in love like I am. It felt good to know that he was in love and could feel some of the stuff I feel. So that was great. He was SOO HAppY! So i was elated to see him full of life again. Anywho..after that I did some net surfing...talked with my Baby on the phone and we both said goodnight at around 2:00am.
To the Lord, thank you for everything, please continue to sustain me and draw me closer to yourself, and to my Baby, I love you SOOOO mUCH! A BILLION KISSES AND HUGES.
I went to sleep on the pillow case of him and fell into his arms once again.
On Saturday, I hibernated in my room ALL DAY. I know it was crazy. I haven't done that since hight school, hehe. And even then it wasn't total hibernation by myself because there would always be family coming in and out. But yeah, Saturday was my alone time seriously. I woke up around 10:00am and then I took a refreshing shower and sat down at my honey dips computer and began to work. (btw honey dip is another one of the names I have for you my mu - mu) :). So yeah I worked on hmk for Contemporary Black Politics, Business Government, and then English and African American Studies. Meanwhile my baby got on meebo, and we were able to video conference chat while I worked. While I worked on homework, he worked on his RA re-application. It was great! I felt him with me the entire time. We laughed and made faces at each other, and blew each other kisses and gave each other electronic hugs hehe, and we talked about current events. It was good stuff. I learned that in the biotechnological field, scientists have already started experimenting with human reproduction of animals. Yep thats right...its crazy!! I had no idea, but scientist already have human female hosts that have been injected with animal sperm. Another words, they have human females trying to grow gorilla and chimpanzee babies. It is a hot mess in my opinion. It is quite terrible. UGh! But yeah that was something just interesting to gross you out. haha. But yeah the issue of debate was whether or not the biotechnological field should be loosely or tightly regulated. I think that laws should restrict a lot of the research that is going on or that biotechnology wants to conduct in the future - such as cloning and breading animal babies from human beings. I don't think that the field of biotechnology is capable of regulating itself at all in terms of its conduct and ethics. But the author of the article thinks other wise.
Anywho...after that we talked and worked and talked and worked all day. Until like 6 or 7 in the evening. Then my baby finally told me to go eat and I did at the dinning hall. There I ran into a couple of my residents and had to eat with them cause one girl kept pressing :(. hehe. But yeah it was nice..I just wanted to eat alone though. Anywho..I came back to my baby and talked with him till he had to leave. His Dad was coming to pick him up and he was headed to a lacrosse game and snow-shoeing. Which was exciting. Check out his blog to see/read. But yeah..I did something bad..and I cried when he left. I couldn't control my tears at all. Sigh..All day I felt that he was right here beside me so much so that I forgot he was away physically. So it caught me off guard when he had to go...and I cried. I felt so bad for crying..I didn't want to make you sad honey..just know that I love you and I miss you and I am doing alright. I may cry at times...but I am holding up and waiting for you! MWAH. I am so happy that I have forever with you. This way we can make up for the time that we are away from each other. mwah.
But yeah after that episode..I pulled myself together..completed my homework, and headed off to the gym at like 9 or so. I had a great workout. I worked out for 2 1/2 hours. It was really good, and made me feel better. Then I came back and took a nice long shower. After that I surfed the net some and found some awesome jobs btw..baby I will send them to you. I found some for both of us..as backups :). And then when I couldn't hold out anymore I went to sleep. It was a good rest.
Sunday - I woke up at 7. I woke up to some knuckle heads prank on a student. I don't even want to say the prank to give anyone else ideas. But the point was I was sooo angry....and yelled at the girl and the boys that were involved! I even scared them to high heavens by telling them of the possible repercussions. And this was while I was still part sleep walking lol. What!? 7am on a SUNDAY is EARLY! shoot! Anywho....after that episode...my Dad came to pick me up and take me home for Bible Study. I got home at like 9am and Bible study doesn't start till 11:45, so I talked with my Bro for an hour...and found out about the restart of his relationship, and then I went jogging for 45 mins.. It felt nice to jog around my home area. I hadn't done that since I was a sophomore and now I am officially a senior.
So when I came home I showered and my mom taught me how to season chicken. (I have been taking lessons on how to cook from her so that has been going well). Then we had Bible Study and a family meeting about finances. At around 3:00 I drove Trina and Neil to the mall and we all laughed and joked. It was good to be with them. It really showed me that the reason both of them were acting hostile (for lack of a better term) towards me was because they really missed me. So yeah...:). As my Tamu would say "oh...when family loves you." hehe. After that we came home and I ate dinner and talked with my mom. We talked and then did homework together. I brought out my business government book and jumped on her bed to read, and she brought out her managerial accounting book and studied on her desk. It was nice to do hmk with my mom. She out lasted me though, cause I fell asleep until 10:00 - when I had to leave. My brother drove me back on campus and we talked more about his relationship..so that was good. I am excited for him. I just want him to allow the Lord to lead him and for him to be happy and in love like I am. It felt good to know that he was in love and could feel some of the stuff I feel. So that was great. He was SOO HAppY! So i was elated to see him full of life again. Anywho..after that I did some net surfing...talked with my Baby on the phone and we both said goodnight at around 2:00am.
To the Lord, thank you for everything, please continue to sustain me and draw me closer to yourself, and to my Baby, I love you SOOOO mUCH! A BILLION KISSES AND HUGES.
I went to sleep on the pillow case of him and fell into his arms once again.
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Another day without my Mu mu
So today was alright. To tell you the truth, this week has been going by soo slow since all I have been doing is thinking of when my Baby returns. I can't even find the words to say how much I miss him. Today his gift for me came in the mail. Before he left he ordered me a big blanket with a picture of us stitched in it and he gave me a pillow case with a picture of him so that I could feel like he is right there holding me even though he is away. I must say that it is the best bought gift I have ever received. When I am cold I get to wrap him around me. And when I sleep or hug my pillow I get to fall into his arms. It feels wonderful.
So every night this week me and Mu have talked for 3 hours on the phone. The first night we just talked until my phone battery ran out and then we talked through google chat. Then last night we talked on the phone and played chess against each other over meebo. And let me tell you that he won by default..cause I had to go eat and the game was timed....and yeah...I just suck at chess haha. But I love playing it with my Baby no matter how bad I am. Then we watched Desperate Housewives together on Abc. That is my favorite show.
Yesterday I went home to sleep. I needed to take my mind off missing Mu so much, so I thought being around the family would help. I had a good time at home. I laughed with and joked with my family for hours. My brother and I finally talked. Since I have been living on campus we have seemed to talk less and less. At one point I even thought he didn't like me anymore. But yesterday I found out that he was always distant because he missed seeing me so much. So that was cleared up hehe. Me and him talked for hours upon hours yesterday. This morning he even wanted to grab breakfast with me and talk more. That made me happy. Yep last night was pretty good if must say so myself. The only bad thing was that there was no food in the house. I know..ridiculous! So I had to drive to McDonalds at like 10:30 at night cause it got to the point that I was starving. lol...sigh..I know..its so sad.
Anywho, today has been good. I got back on campus at 8:30 this morning and had enough time to get ready for my writing class at 9:15. Then after that class, I grabbed breakfast and chilled until my second class - Contemporary Black Politics (which is a good class by the by..so far anyway). After that I went to work which was slow. I got to talk to my Baby :) which was the highlight of my day.
Then...I had the horrible interview. I applied to go to Spain during the first part of the summer so they called me in for an interview. yeah...lets just say the interview was horrible! It was unprofessional and the teacher was mean and rude. She bashed my spanish speaking and said I was doesn't think I should go pretty much. Yeah so that sucked but you know what?! The Lord is good, my life is full of blessing, I have a great family, and I have a wonderful handsome man that loves me more than I could ever imagine. So you know what I say to that horrible interview?!..."pah". (note: this was after encouraging and inspiring words were said to me by my huby.) Thank you Baby kisses and a huge squeeze.
So I got to talk to my Baby for the next two hours after the interview. When he had to go, I took a short nap and then wen to do office hours since I was on duty. Then I came back to talk to my honey bunch some more and when he had to go again I did hmk. And took a short walk to return our movie rentals from last week. Anywho, I am back in my room doing hmk. I have a lot of energy weirdly enough, but I think I will go to sleep at a decent time tonight so that I can workout in the morning. (by decent time I mean 12:00-12:30am as opposed to 2:30am) hehe.
But yeah thats all in the life of vicky today. To the Lord, thank you for guiding my foot steps yet another day, and to my Tamu, I love you with all my heart. I can't wait to fall into your embrace tonight :) MWAH
oh and p.s. I'm sure that I want to spend the rest of my life with you aswell
So every night this week me and Mu have talked for 3 hours on the phone. The first night we just talked until my phone battery ran out and then we talked through google chat. Then last night we talked on the phone and played chess against each other over meebo. And let me tell you that he won by default..cause I had to go eat and the game was timed....and yeah...I just suck at chess haha. But I love playing it with my Baby no matter how bad I am. Then we watched Desperate Housewives together on Abc. That is my favorite show.
Yesterday I went home to sleep. I needed to take my mind off missing Mu so much, so I thought being around the family would help. I had a good time at home. I laughed with and joked with my family for hours. My brother and I finally talked. Since I have been living on campus we have seemed to talk less and less. At one point I even thought he didn't like me anymore. But yesterday I found out that he was always distant because he missed seeing me so much. So that was cleared up hehe. Me and him talked for hours upon hours yesterday. This morning he even wanted to grab breakfast with me and talk more. That made me happy. Yep last night was pretty good if must say so myself. The only bad thing was that there was no food in the house. I know..ridiculous! So I had to drive to McDonalds at like 10:30 at night cause it got to the point that I was starving. lol...sigh..I know..its so sad.
Anywho, today has been good. I got back on campus at 8:30 this morning and had enough time to get ready for my writing class at 9:15. Then after that class, I grabbed breakfast and chilled until my second class - Contemporary Black Politics (which is a good class by the by..so far anyway). After that I went to work which was slow. I got to talk to my Baby :) which was the highlight of my day.
Then...I had the horrible interview. I applied to go to Spain during the first part of the summer so they called me in for an interview. yeah...lets just say the interview was horrible! It was unprofessional and the teacher was mean and rude. She bashed my spanish speaking and said I was doesn't think I should go pretty much. Yeah so that sucked but you know what?! The Lord is good, my life is full of blessing, I have a great family, and I have a wonderful handsome man that loves me more than I could ever imagine. So you know what I say to that horrible interview?!..."pah". (note: this was after encouraging and inspiring words were said to me by my huby.) Thank you Baby kisses and a huge squeeze.
So I got to talk to my Baby for the next two hours after the interview. When he had to go, I took a short nap and then wen to do office hours since I was on duty. Then I came back to talk to my honey bunch some more and when he had to go again I did hmk. And took a short walk to return our movie rentals from last week. Anywho, I am back in my room doing hmk. I have a lot of energy weirdly enough, but I think I will go to sleep at a decent time tonight so that I can workout in the morning. (by decent time I mean 12:00-12:30am as opposed to 2:30am) hehe.
But yeah thats all in the life of vicky today. To the Lord, thank you for guiding my foot steps yet another day, and to my Tamu, I love you with all my heart. I can't wait to fall into your embrace tonight :) MWAH
oh and p.s. I'm sure that I want to spend the rest of my life with you aswell
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
First Day without my Baby
So today was my first day without my Baby. He left to go home at 6:45 this morning. I went with him to the airport at around 5:30 or so. It was so sad seeing him leave. I miss him soo much. I miss his smile, his touch, his laugh, his eyes. I miss all of him. He continually sent me messages throughout his trip and that helped me get through the day so much. Tomorrow we are going to send each other lots of messages again and watch a show online together :)....
Sigh..I can't wait until I get to squeeze my baby again.
Sigh..I can't wait until I get to squeeze my baby again.
Thursday, January 3, 2008
Yesterday and Today
First, I am sorry I didn't write something yesterday. Even if it is one word, I want to get in the habit of always writing something. Yesterday wasn't all that bad. It was actually pretty good for the most part. I mean I went to work for 3 hours. Then my boyfriend came and sat with me at work for some time, and then we visited my mom at her job for a bit. And then we went back to my room and just hung out. We got to squeeze each other until I had to go to my RA training at for an hour. After that, mu and I picked up some dinner at Boloco and then we went to see Alien VS Predator at the theater. After that movie, which rated a C in my book however was still scary, we decided to stay and see another movie. We saw this comedy that kinda really sucked. It sucked so bad I forget the name of it to tell you the truth. But yeah, after that we called it a night. And that was that.
I acomplished a good amount yesterday. I finished writing essays for my RA re-application. I had Tamu call the doctors to figure out some things with his traveling shots, I organized my online calender, and I organized and updated my online todo lists. I know...its not a whole lot..bit nevertheless it was something.
The one bad things that happened. It started yesterday and has leaked into today. mu's old friend - thats a girl came back and wanted to hang out with him. With me it is not a jealously thing, but the fact is...I just don't like her at all. Both her and another one of his old friends that is female disrespect me and treat me like I'm someone who doesn't exist. But yeah anywho...back to the current issue...the current issue is, I don't like her at all! Mu has stopped really being friends with them because of how they are and that makes me happy. But right now she is back in town, they are hanging out today and the bottom line is..that every time I see her I feel hurt at what happened before. Every time I think of what happened before I feel horrible. Mu once asked for my forgiveness for the things that happened and I once gave it. But forgiveness is easier said then actually practiced. I believe that I have forgiven him but I am so scared that I will get hurt again. Anywho..only time will tell....
Meanwhile..I am annoyed and sad.
I cried before I fell asleep last night. Part of me was sad over past and possible future, part of me was sad over him leaving me for 6 months in less then a week. And the other part of me was so sad over me being / feeling alone again. Sometimes I just feel so alone. Here I am a Christian young lady that is going places and going to do big things...and I feel alone emotionally, spirtually, and physically at times... sigh.
My conclusion is that I need to pray more and spend more time with the Lord! Jesus Christ always looks beyond my faults and provides for my every need. So prayer and Bible Study is what I'll do.
I acomplished a good amount yesterday. I finished writing essays for my RA re-application. I had Tamu call the doctors to figure out some things with his traveling shots, I organized my online calender, and I organized and updated my online todo lists. I know...its not a whole lot..bit nevertheless it was something.
The one bad things that happened. It started yesterday and has leaked into today. mu's old friend - thats a girl came back and wanted to hang out with him. With me it is not a jealously thing, but the fact is...I just don't like her at all. Both her and another one of his old friends that is female disrespect me and treat me like I'm someone who doesn't exist. But yeah anywho...back to the current issue...the current issue is, I don't like her at all! Mu has stopped really being friends with them because of how they are and that makes me happy. But right now she is back in town, they are hanging out today and the bottom line is..that every time I see her I feel hurt at what happened before. Every time I think of what happened before I feel horrible. Mu once asked for my forgiveness for the things that happened and I once gave it. But forgiveness is easier said then actually practiced. I believe that I have forgiven him but I am so scared that I will get hurt again. Anywho..only time will tell....
Meanwhile..I am annoyed and sad.
I cried before I fell asleep last night. Part of me was sad over past and possible future, part of me was sad over him leaving me for 6 months in less then a week. And the other part of me was so sad over me being / feeling alone again. Sometimes I just feel so alone. Here I am a Christian young lady that is going places and going to do big things...and I feel alone emotionally, spirtually, and physically at times... sigh.
My conclusion is that I need to pray more and spend more time with the Lord! Jesus Christ always looks beyond my faults and provides for my every need. So prayer and Bible Study is what I'll do.
Tuesday, January 1, 2008
My first Post
This is my first post!! I am very excited to start keeping an online diary. I think that it will help me in dealing with everything that is happening in my life. Right now I am preparing to spend 6 months without my lover and best-friend. He is first going to his home in Portland Oregon for a month and is then going to study abroad in Ghana for a while. I am so sad that he is going, but at the same time I know that what he is doing is very important. Going to Ghana will help strengthen him in so many ways. He will have the chance to see where his ancestors came from, and immerse himself in a culture that he is unfamiliar with. This trip will help him to furthur understand his history, appreciate his present, and give more purpose for his future. This will be a great trip for him, and although I will be very very sad, I will be very happy that my love will have this wonderful oppurtunity.
So yeah, thats the biggest thing right now. The other things tend to take care of themselves as long as I keep God first in my life.
The other things that will be happening in my life is; doing exceedingly well in classes this semester that is starting in a week, traveling to Spain in the summer, taking GRE's for Grad school, applying for Grad school and hopefully getting this job that I have wanted ever since freshman year of college, spending more time at home with my family - particularly my Mom and Dad, and remaining healthy.
This semester I am taking two of my hardest classes. So imma need to be soo focused!! My boyfriend in the midest of everything some how convinced me to go to Spain for the summer. Well, firstly it has always been my dream to learn to speak Spanish fluently so logically, traveling to a Spanish speaking place would seem like a great step. Yeah, I got that, but um...yeah I'm just a little scared of traveling by myself to another country. You know specially since I have never been to anothe country. So yeah, thats my issue with that. I mean the good side to this, besides me learning Spanish of course and being in another country other than the States is that I will get to travel with my lover in Spain for some time. I will be in Spain for two summer semesters and he will come join me in Spain from Ghana for one of those semesters. So in a nut shell...it will be fantastico!!
Now on the matter of graduating college, I am so a happy that my time in undergrad it almost over. I already have a great job waiting for me, all I need to do is worry about getting into grad school and I'm all set. Praise be to the Lord! woot woot!! lol. God is good ALL the time. I am so grateful for everyone's prayers, and Gods unconditional blessings.
And lastly I will definitely be spending more time with the family. I will need their support even more now that my bestfriend is leaving for 6 months. I will hang around my mom more so she can teach me things than can sharpen my skills. Sigh, this will be a tough semester.
I pray that the Lord keeps me and continues to bless me. I pray that the Lord will keep the love of my life safe and draw him closer to Himself. I pray that the Lord will bring my man back to me, and our relationship will be even stronger than when he left.
So what can I say but this semester will be somethin else. :) This diary will help in more ways than one....
So yeah, thats the biggest thing right now. The other things tend to take care of themselves as long as I keep God first in my life.
The other things that will be happening in my life is; doing exceedingly well in classes this semester that is starting in a week, traveling to Spain in the summer, taking GRE's for Grad school, applying for Grad school and hopefully getting this job that I have wanted ever since freshman year of college, spending more time at home with my family - particularly my Mom and Dad, and remaining healthy.
This semester I am taking two of my hardest classes. So imma need to be soo focused!! My boyfriend in the midest of everything some how convinced me to go to Spain for the summer. Well, firstly it has always been my dream to learn to speak Spanish fluently so logically, traveling to a Spanish speaking place would seem like a great step. Yeah, I got that, but um...yeah I'm just a little scared of traveling by myself to another country. You know specially since I have never been to anothe country. So yeah, thats my issue with that. I mean the good side to this, besides me learning Spanish of course and being in another country other than the States is that I will get to travel with my lover in Spain for some time. I will be in Spain for two summer semesters and he will come join me in Spain from Ghana for one of those semesters. So in a nut shell...it will be fantastico!!
Now on the matter of graduating college, I am so a happy that my time in undergrad it almost over. I already have a great job waiting for me, all I need to do is worry about getting into grad school and I'm all set. Praise be to the Lord! woot woot!! lol. God is good ALL the time. I am so grateful for everyone's prayers, and Gods unconditional blessings.
And lastly I will definitely be spending more time with the family. I will need their support even more now that my bestfriend is leaving for 6 months. I will hang around my mom more so she can teach me things than can sharpen my skills. Sigh, this will be a tough semester.
I pray that the Lord keeps me and continues to bless me. I pray that the Lord will keep the love of my life safe and draw him closer to Himself. I pray that the Lord will bring my man back to me, and our relationship will be even stronger than when he left.
So what can I say but this semester will be somethin else. :) This diary will help in more ways than one....
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