Spain and Turkey

Hey everyone!! Here is url to Tamu and I´s new blog for our adventures in Spain and Turkey. Check it out http://tamuandvicky.blogspot.com/

Much love
Vicky

Happy Birthday!

I got you this ecard, so that I could send you some love from afar. I hope you enjoy it. I enjoy you. Kisses and have a great day. Oh and try not to watch this until Friday... if you can wait.

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Campus is emptying out....

So as of last Friday, campus has been pretty empty. Students were required to get out of the dorms on the 25th by6 7pm. With the exception of a few who got permission to stay over night, all the students have left. YEY. Oh I am so fortunate to have nights where I can sleep peacefully now, and not be forced to get up in the middle of the night to regulate rowdy kids. I forgot what it was like to not hear loud pounding music while trying to sleep. The first night with students away was glorious. I slept well and deeply.

Saturday morning I woke up at 6am and went for a 2 hour run outside. It was beautiful. It was kinda cool but perfect enough for me to wear a t-shirt and shorts. The weather was cool while I was standing in one place but as soon as I started running I warmed up. I jogged from my dorm to mass ave, to cambridge, to fenway, to columbus, then to reggie lewis and back. When I got back to my dorm I stopped to walk for a bit, but then I realized that I wasn't tired so I started running again, this time in the opposite direction. I ran towards to other side of fenway and ran around the track for a bit. Then I did what I saw in the rocky movies and ran up and down some really steep stairs for

a while. Boy did that hurt my legs. My thighs were screaming at me afterwards. After that I jogged off the pain and returned back my dorm. Then I took the longest shower and fell asleep for 2 hours. When woke up to a call from some of my staff to go eat breakfast/lunch. So I decided to goin the gang. We had good laughs.

After that I went back to my room and watched some good dancing video's. Lately I have been finding good dance choregograhy on youtube. So I have been looking at all of them and finding good ones. Recently I found this guy named Kolanie. He has some great dances...check it out...here is one that I really like and I wish it was longer http://youtube.com/watch?v=ps7_19gMuFI

He is dancing to Toni Braxton's song "Maybe". Good sigh..its good stuff.

Anywho..I had checkout office hours from 2 till 7 that day. So I chilled in the office with Chris (another ra on staff) and wached terminator while checking students out. It was really good and I met some more cool residents as well.

Then Liliana (me and mu's tennis buddy) happend to stop by the office and convinced me to leave early and go with her to play some tennis. So thats what we did. It was soo fun. I hadn't played tennis for almost 2 years now. I felt so good to hit that tennis ball again, and to just do what I onced loved. I mean I still love it, just not as much. But yeah as always is the case when I play tennis...muscles that I hadn't paid much attention to for a while were used and my body was sooo sore! But it was a good sore. At first Im thinking...oh maybe I am just feeling the run from this morning. But nah...it was def the tennis. Anywho..as soon as I was dropped off at the dorm my baby called. It was perfect timing. I was so happy. Sooo happty to hear to his voice. I could see that he was just as happy to talk with me. We talked for like 2 hours. It was great. I miss him so much. I can't wait to see him again.

Wooo....5 more weeks left. I am so excited!...Even though 5 weeks is still too long if u a ask me :P

Finally getting the chance to write

So its 2:40 in the morning and I am not sure what to write about at all. Its been such a long time since I have written anything and so much has happened. I guess first I can talk about the usual, which is missing mumu. I miss and love you sweets. It has taken me so long to write because classes have been literally strangling the life out of me. This by far has been my most intensive semester. But due to God's blessings, it has also been one of my most accomplished filled semesters.

I have Aced all my classes except one - which is advanced writing. I still did well in the class though...just didn't get the highest grade I could of cause I lost the ability to care about halfway threw it hehe. But yeah, I pulled off a great 10 ra programs for this semester, got a teaching assistant job for next fall, have been putting together a very good grad application that will God willingly make me irresistible to grad schools :P. I also got asked by both the ra and part-time job to stay on for the summer. YEY to making money is the least I have to say about that.....So yeah I have been busy. Things have naturally picked up at a fast pace since you've been gone baby. I have been focused on what I need to do despite my mind being on you. Although it has been a hard semester with you leaving, I am so happy that you had the wonderful oppurtunity of studying in Ghana for six months!! Do you know how many people get that oppurtunity!?! Not many. I am elated that God has blessed you to stay safe thus far. He has had his hand on you mu, from the family you were blessed to stay with to the obruni's that you have been forced to be around, everything has worked out for the good. I love ya cuffy. Im so happy you made the decision to go and accomplish your dream. This time away from each other has only strengthened us and has made us ever so ready for whatever lies ahead.

With that being said...I am pretty happy right now if I do say so myself ;) The semester has come to a close for me. I finished my last final yesterday at 9:00AM YAHHOOO!!! I felt like a huge weight was lifted off my mind. lol u do not understand how hard it was to write that last paper for Business Government class. My mind has literally never been stretched so much. Till this moment I don't even know how I wrote this paper cause I had nothing in that head of mine at all. After last thursday I got the lazy bug and I did absolutely nothing! My body was already in shut down mode even though I had one more final. But yeah I am so fortunate cause right now - everyone is still working on their finals and I...I am chillin! Wooo..it feels great. Even though it feels kinda lonely cause everyone is still working so hard and i am the only one on vacation so to speak... eh.but I'm still all smiles :) :). My baby is coming home in exactly 6 semanas. YEy!! In the next 2 week Ill be preparing to move out to my new apartment, start a new semester of classes (which I am not ready for :/..im think i may be too burnt out), further secure future plans and oh yeah..do something for my birthday ;). May 9th yall..yeaha!!!

P.S. I want to make a special request for everyone to show me as much love as you can and as soon as possible if u haven't already. My baby and I leave for Spain and Turkey in literally 2 months so imma be gone before ya know it. Imma need yall to get your Vicky time in now before its too late lol.

Movie Day!

Today was a good day. I had one of the best workouts I have had this semester! I went to the gym at 6:30am and worked every single muscle in my body. Woo..It felt good. Needless to say I was wobbling like a penguin by the time I was leaving the gym hehe.

After I got back I took the longest, warmest shower. Then I ate some cereal while watching Barack Obama's "A More Perfect Union" speech. The man is a the bomb speaker! He comes across as so sincere and honest it is insane. There are very few people that I meet or hear speak that actually speak with such conviction, purpose, and passion. He was so clear in where he was going and where he had come from. His speech didn't feel written or rehearsed but genuine and at the moment. Since his speech was in fact written, his words seemed to form the perfect essay. You know, one of those essays that follow a clear, concise and moving thought. It was good. He was good. I hadn't gotten a chance to watch his speech cause of my schedule, so I took the oppurtunity to get caught up on things.

After breakfast and Barack I felt so good that I fell asleep for the next 3 hours. After my nap, I woke up, looked over some homework and convinced myself that I should cleanup my room so that I could be more productive. My room was a hot mess! I hadn't cleaned it for 2 weeks - for the 2 weeks..I was stressed and busy..so you can imagine how it looked. Well I don't think you could imagine..cause well even I surprised myself. This was the worst it had ever looked by far. hehe.

Anywho...I cleaned and listened to some Jamie fox, Boys 2 men, Chris brown, and Whitney Houston's old jams. I had a "private party" as India Ire would say. It was very nice!

After cleaning I did homework and at around 6:30 I went to the cafe and had a good dinner. My goal has been to not eat after 7 or 8 the latest so 6:30pm was perfect timing. I had broccoli, rice and meat. It was delicious. My belly felt great. It was a nice day out, and I was dressed just right for the weather. I had on the warmest turtleneck I own, thick jeans, warm boots, the warm coat my baby bought me, and his warm wool scarf. I was good. Good to go. I went back to my room to pick up some gloves and decided to take advantage of the day and go on a walk. Originally I was going to just walk to best buy - look at some ipods and then walk back. But before I left my room I thought - You know what!? I am going to see a movie. Thats right. I looked up the first couple of movies that popped up in yahoo's movie list...and I went for it. The whole time I walked with a smile on my face. I had stayed away from the movie theaters in particular since mu's been gone cause we had gone so many times together..it just didn't feel right to go by myself. But I finally took myself at 7:40pm today...and it was fantastic!!

I saw Vantage Point. It was so great. It was everything I needed in a movie tonight. It was action filled, mystery, jumpy, creative, funny. It was so good! Much better than I expected. I would harp on the creativeness the most cause it was unlike most movies. Baby..you would love it too. All I will say is that this movie is like the show we watched with taye diggs having to repeat the same day over and over again. Vantage Point is like that but better. The movie does the same moment in time over and over again but from different peoples perspectives...so the whole while you are solving the case just as the actors or movie investigators are. It was engaging! While I was there I made friends with a woman about near my mom's and dad's age, and we just talked, laughed and screamed the whole way through. It is soo great...yep..thats all I can say...good sigh

Needless to say..I walked there with a smile, and I walked out with a smile. It felt so good to see a movie and for it to be good - especially the first time seeing one for 4 months.

Good sigh..its been a good relaxing day. I could have done more hmk but I needed that movie and I think I deserved it :).

Staying busy!! and grad school

Exams..exams...exams..I guess might be my theme up until the semester ends. I have a funny feeling about it. Starting this Monday, things were a little less intense because I finished my powerpoint presentation. However activities of each day still deprived me of sleep and kept me on my toes.

The good thing that happened this week, was that I got a chance to talk to mumu a good amount. I talked with him many more times this week that I have ever before. Due to great news that I got the RIGHT phone card finally. I was able to go the sprint store and spend less money for more minutes with my baby. So that was good. It felt so good to be able to say "baby, im going to call you tonight." Our convo's ranged everywhere from the underdevelopment of Africa to our love for each other to our future goals. It was great stuff. Talking with mu made this week much easier to get through.

This week was fairly busy but everything is coming together so smoothly. One of the biggest things consists of me applying to grad school. I already have the two people that are doing my recommendations and now all I need to do is my personal statement. Which is the hardest part. jeez...its yet another paper...and I want it to be so good yet I have no idea what to say...so the process is stagnant at the moment :(. But yeah there are so many options for grad programs I am kind over whelmed. So i am still in the process of panning everything out. I'll make sure to keep you up to date with the latest in that area.

Anywho..this week is practically over. In about 2 months my baby will be back. Once April 17th comes...time will go by even faster! Yey.....:)

New York Weekend

The weekend of the 15th my family and I with the exception of Neil took a road trip to New York. We went because my Mom's Dad is very sick. So we all went to Brooklyn's Hospital to visit him along with other family members on my mothers side. It was quite interesting - the whole experience that is. It started with the morning. Mom, Dad, Trina, Stacey and Victor and I helped pack a whole bunch of fruit, crackers, chips, veggies and drinks in the back of a rental van. We then took off at around 7:30am and headed to New York. Both my Dad and Victor (brother in law) took turns driving. Surprisingly we got there pretty fast. We arrived in Brooklyn at exactly 12 noon. And the trip felt shorter because it was enjoyable. Well the whole time my nose was in one of my books for class - no doubt making the time go by even faster cause I learned a lot in my reading -but still talking with the fam made the trip less long. Oh and it also helped that we had really good directions..thats always good!

I have never been to Brooklyn New York before. The most I had ever gone to was Manhatten and another city....which i forgets its name. But yeah for the most part, what I saw of New York was always the places that were wealthy, and suburby. However Brooklyn was nothing like that - well atleast where the hospital was. It was actually quite ghetto to say the least. When i stepped out the van, I felt like I was in another world for a bit. I kinda felt depressed at the thought of living there. If we had ever lived there, I know I would have def been successful cause I would have used everything in me to escape that place. When I was there, all of those movies - when you see a kid growing up in the ghetto and wishing "one day I'll get out of this place" came to mind. It felt just so hopeless as I looked around the streets. It surely made me appreciate my neck of the woods up in the Bean!

But yeah, the hospital was cool. My Mom's dad was so sick that he couldn't even speak to us really. All he did was stare at us and not really move. He has a whole bunch of things going on, but to this day I don't really know what his illness is. From the trip I just know he had many strokes, his memory comes and goes very very frequently, he can barely speak, and he falls asleep every 3 minutes atleast. So while my mother cared for him, we all just really stood or sat around while he just staired at us. He remembered my Mom which would make any daughter happy. Aside from that..we really just stood around and stared at him. It was hard for me to say much or even touch him because I really didn't know him. I don't ever remember seeing him - even though apparently I did when I was toddler. I never heard from him as I grew up...nor even knew what he looked like till that weekend. So yeah...i felt just a little detached to say the least.

Later that day, my Mom's step mom came and my mom's sister came (of which she has not seen for 40 years). It was crazy!! I can't imagine not seeing my family I had once lived with for 40 years....mm..wow..yeah so they were happy to see each other as you can imagine. Her sister brought her daughter in law which was cool. She was fairly newly married like Stacey and Victor, so naturally the people in that age group bonded.

Trina, Dad, and I just sat around and listened while family talked until I turned to my Dad and saw him falling asleep. Then I would nudge him back awake and tell him that I was hungry. With it getting late..my Dad jumped up, had us all hold hands around My mom's father, said a prayer, and before you know it we were back on the road headed to Boston. We stayed there for a little over 3 hours and we got back to Boston a little after 7pm. Exhausted upon arriving back home..some of us fell asleep while others hung out in front of the tv, while still others roamed the rooms of the house looking for something to do (me for the most part).

At 10 that evening, Neil dropped me off on campus on his way to work. It felt good to be finally back in my bed. I went straight to sleep because I knew I had to be up at 5 the next morning to study for more exams.

Finally writing again.

So its most def been a while since I have written something. I have been so busy lately. I haven't had time to do much but study study and study. I have actually been some what stressed at times as of late, but everything has come together. The Lord has really been good to me and has been working everything out for my good despite my human tendency to worry worry and do more worrying. Let me just say that it does no good to worry. If you have the Lord on your side - there is nothing you need to worry about. He takes care of every need and adds on the desires of your heart. YEp indeedy! With that said, I am doing pretty well.

So the latest that has happened are midterms, up-coming finals, and a whole bunch of tests and papers in between. Every week I have either had a paper, test or presentation that has had to be done. It is actually quite insane. Before the week of spring break, I had worked my butt off to study for Business Government, complete a 10 pager for African American Studies, and complete another 10 pager for English. And you will be happy to know that I got nothing less than a B on all the work I did.

Business Government - I got a 93
African American studies paper- B+
AAS exam - A
English - B

Yep. Those were my midterm grades. I was pleased considering that I stopped truly caring while writing those two papers. hehe. Yeah..I was burnt out from the work and I was just managing to keep my head above water. So yey for the turnout. For my 4th class - Contemporary Black Politics - I had to do a 50 page powerpoint slide. The presentation had to cover the time period from slavery until present day. YEah...exactly...there is made stuff to cover! It was crazy. I worked on nothing but that for the entire week and turned it in last Friday at noon. He hasn't given us grades back for it yet unfortunatey. That entire week was one bad memory. My regular bedtime became 3:30 in the morning - it was terrible. Then I usually went to sleep for anywhere between 1-3 hours, then I would wake up again by 6:30am the latest to continue working. I could have made it easier for myself by plugging away at it more day by day..but the other days were consumed in the same way but with a different assignment. Now thinking about it I should have worked on the powerpoint from the very very begining of the semester...boo..aw well. Everything can't be perfect. But yeah...the times were crazy!! Like I up while my baby was sleeping over in Ghana, and I was still up while he was getting up in the morning. So while I was working on hmk - we would get to chat in the mornings. Besides the grades, some good came out of me missing out on sleep to say the least.

Anywho..I have gotten through the weeks..

Meanwhile many things have happened...I have gotten the Senior RA position - which is a step up-towards the job i ultimately want to land after college, I have been planning this program with Trina (the sister) and Bob (my boss). Essentially we are planning a community service event with high school students. So thats been stressful to say the least. It has required so much running around on my part..I can't even think about it too much else my head begins to hurt. I have been studying for GRE's and I have been looking at Graduate schools along with getting my application together. So yep..thats me..always on the grind - and preparing for the future. Plans are coming together..rapidly but surely..

Sore Muscles

Today was pretty good. I was supposed to wake up at 5am to hit the gym..hehe..but yeah..umm...I didn't make it. Instead I woke up at 7:00am and hit the gym for two hours before my 9:15 English class. It was a good workout! I ran forever on the treadmill again. But yeah, after the workout, I was crazy sore. I could hardly walk up the stairs. And every-time I walked somewhere I was like rushing just so I could sit down hehe. But yeah it was a good sore, not like the time you were here babes and I couldn't move at all. Anywho, after the gym, I got out in time enough to go to the library, print out my paper, and arrive to class 5 mins early. Class was pretty short. All we did was talk about pointless stuff and then hand in our papers. The most embarrasing thing was how my stomach kept growling at me in the middle of class. EVERYONe heard it..it was ridiculous. And it kept doing it. It was so loud that one girl leaned over and said to me "maybe you should get something to eat downstairs"...and then I told her "maybe I should put my fist in your mouth..how about that?" lol...no I didn't say that..but yeah my stomach was actin fresh.

Anywho, after class I went right to get breakfast at the cafe. It was delicious this morning. I had french toast and eggs. mmm..I haven't had eggs since you have left baby, so it felt so good to have some. And the french toast was finally soft and perfect. I think this was the first time in 3 years the cafe got it right. (vicky shakes her head in disbelief still)

After breakfast I went back to my place and took a nice warm shower and fell asleep for an hour. I had an hour before work started so I figured I would take one of those healthy mid day naps - that help u live longer hehe. But this time the nap wasn't the best. I woke up more tired then I was before the nap. So yeah, that wasn't too good to say the least. I woke up 5 mintues before work - cause I couldn't seem to get up to my alarm.

Work was pretty laid back. I got a lot of work done on my paper due Friday. I did all the research needed so the writing part will be very easy. I was proud of myself, cause I was in no condition to work and focus on hmk. But what i was researching was quite interesting. I am doing a paper on Fredrick Douglass. And while I know a lot about the brother, it was my first time reading through his entire narrative. It was quite interesting. I swear if I lived back then...his writing would have inspired me to risk my life on the underground railroad and try to save as many slaves as I can. His writing, his words, were so inspiring and powerful. It is amazing how a person can write with such conviction and present it so smoothly. I felt like every word he wrote had a distinct purpose for having been written. Every little single word was meant to be there. Yeah..anyway..it was intreging to say the least. If you haven't read it, I encourage you to do so!

After work I headed to my Mom's office - as this has been a daily routine as well - and talked with her for a bit. Then I took off to CVS and the post office where I mailed a response letter to Mumu's mom, bought necessities like soap and mouth wash, and bought a calling card so that I can talk to my baby. But much to my disappointment, I got the wrong one. The one I got does not cover my type of cell phone. So that was freaking annoying. I paid $20 for that...and I'm not even sure if I can return it and get my money back. So yeah boo!!! booo!! boo!!. I will go back there tomorrow to see what's up. Realizing that i still couldn't call my baby, I was sad, and I fell asleep once again. This time i slept for 2 hours. But the good part is that I got to wake up to my baby calling me! :) YEY YEY YEY!! I was very happy to hear from him. We talked for a bit and said a million and one I love you's. It was so good to hear from him. I could feel in his voice that he missed me just as much as I missed him. After we got off the phone with one another I didn't cry this time. I didn't even get sad. Instead I smiled, and felt joy and calmness in my heart. I felt complete. I have my baby's love and I'm very much in his heart. And I have everything going for me here. The Lord has been soo good to me. So yeah..happiness happiness happiness to say the least. He'll be back before I know it.

After that happy time, I got out of bed and prepaired for my proctor shift. I then went over to Speare (where we have to check in) early and stopped by outtakes to get dinner and found that it had snowed when I was sleeping. I would say boo to that too..but eh..to be quite honest I am kinda neutral. Snow is not too bad anymore. Anywaz..at outtakes I got my favorite meal again...veggies and rice. It was soo good and I got the last dish. This meal is my new obsession woo! Anywho..while proctoring I washed an episode of Lost - which was amazing like usual. That show never lets me down...props to them writers. They's is mad good son. lol..let me stop trying to be ghetto. But yeah..great writers fa real! After that I watched Dance Wars..which has improved. Or maybe I've lied and convinced myself that it was decent due to the fact that there is hardly anything else to watch. But back to the point! Proctoring went by pretty quick. For the last hour and a half I worked on my midterm for Friday and made good headway.

Oh but then some girl decided to get drunk or high to the point where she was stumbling and falling all over the place. So naturally I had to call the police and have her taken care of. That was a bummer, but atleast I wasn't on duty so there was less work I had to do. I know it may seem like I lack empathy right now..but once u've been an RA for 3 years u kind of become immune to things such as this.

Anywho, when I got off of proctoring, I came up to my room and did hmk and here I am writing my account of the day. I suppose I should sleep now..

I love you baby.

P.S. The room temperature is just right, I wouldn't want it to be any other way. (my random sentence of the day) :)

After my BIG midterm

So, the Business Government midterm was today. You know, the one I had been studying for for the ENTirE weekend!! Well I think I did very well on it, God willingly I actually did. But I am staying positive. I knew all the terms and more terms that were even not on the exam. I got to include them in my essay portion though. So i am content. I was very happy that this went well though, cause if you couldn't tell from how much I studied for it, I was very very nervous. Well I always get a little nervous before and exam..I don't know why..but I do. But yeah, for this one, I was very nervous so when I finished it and realized that I studied well, I was very happy. I felt like a huge rock had lifted off my shoulders. I had a whole bunch due this week: 3 papers, the BG test and African Americans test. I was so nervous that I was going to not do well on everything, specially cause my mind was of course on Tamu and missing him. I was dreading this week, but hoping for it to come at the same time so that I could get one day closer to the time of his return. But yeah for a bit..I just couldn't focus. I would be reading and have to read a sentence over and over again cause I found my mind wondering about Tamu instead of on the material I was reading. Yikes..I thought to myself.."I can't focus...I can't get this...and I'm going to surely fail" hehe. But I calmed myself, prayed to my Lord and he helped to calm me and focus. I also thought of how much mu loves me, and that helped as well. :)

So yeah the results are as follows: I got an A on my African American studies exam, an A on my English paper, a good feeling about my BG midterm, and I have yet to hand in my second and third paper which is due tomorrow and Friday. So we shall see. But I think I did fairly well for the week. Even though it is not over yet, I consider the hard parts over :)

After the exam, I headed to Moms office and talked with her for a bit. Then I went to my dorm and worked on my paper due wed. I then feel asleep for an hour, and got up in time enough to get to work. I was sooo tired and drained. But yeah, while I was at work, I plugged away at my paper even more. I actually just finished it before blogging it. It's like 1:00 in the morning right now. I have been working on this paper since 3 this afternoon so I am relieved to be done! :)

Anywho, after doing most of my paper by 6:30pm, I got dressed and went to meet Sherley at the gym. We worked out until 9:00. It was a good workout. She was feeling sad over some stuff so I encouraged her the same way she encouraged me when i was falling apart over Tamu being gone. But yeah, the bottom line is some stupid guy just didn't realize what he had and didn't treat her as she should have been treated and now she is suffering from the hurt. So yeah..boo!! But with the Lord's help and my help she will be just fine. We are having a day out together this Friday and Saturday. Friday I am going with her to get her hair done at Monica and Todd's (my hairdresser, but she has never gone there). And then on Saturday we are supposed to go see a movie. I am not sure which one yet, but it should be fun. Yeah, now that I think about it, it is my job to look up times and such..so I should get on that haha.

But yeah after having a hard workout, I went to my staff meeting which was at 9:30pm and then I headed back to my room to finish my paper. And here I am. I'm listening to mixture of jamie fox, brian mcknight, eric benet, and robin thicke. They are all on my play list now. Good singers!!! very good singers. There music is sad enough for me to tear up, but its smooth enough to relax me and help me focus. But yeah...anywho..

I miss you baby, and I love you. I sent you some messages in gmail and fb and left comments on your blog. MWah. I hope you are having a great sleep and have a fantastic day tomorrow. Oh and I am working on getting a phone card tomorrow so I should be calling you soon. Oh and RA's find out if we got hired for next year on Friday. So I'll tell you how that goes. Supposedly there is a lot of us returnees so thats always good.

Oh and one more thing - Spring break is next week!!! I had totally forgotten. But it will be perfect..I can finally get some sleep. I feel like I am tired 24/7.

The room is bright and comfy..i feel good. (And just so u know..I am going to start writing random sentences at the end of my writings again. I think its cool) :P

A fairly good day

So today was fairly good. I decided to sleep in and not go to the gym this morning due to my hard workout last night. I woke up at around 8:30 this morning. I got a nice morning message from my honey and I checked his blog, which has been my daily routine, and I saw his great pictures which made me so happy. Then I put on some nice music (which has been a mix of Jamie fox slow jam songs), brushed my teeth, washed my face, and prepared for my day. I put on a nice white colored shirt under my red sweater and nice pants, and I was good to go.

I left my dorm at around 9:00am and went straight to the library to print out a rough draft of my paper for English class. Yup I did it even though it turned out that my teacher didn't look at it or doing anything with it in class, so it was quite pointless. But yeah..anywho..after that I studied more for my midterm and ate a bowl of cereal at the cafe. The bowl of cereal was not that good by the way but I wolfed it down cause it was the only thing I came near to feel like eating.

After eating and studying I walked over to my moms office to say hi and share Mumu's awesome new pics of him in Ghana that are up. She loved them. We talked for a bit and I then realized that I was soooo tired. Probably cause I had not gone to sleep until like 2 this morning..so yeah. Even though I hadn't planned on it, I had to come back to my place and take a 20 minute nap before my second class of the day. I'm the type of person that usually does not do good with short naps despite reports that say - 15 minute naps throughout the day helps you live longer. I generally sleep very very deeply in those 15 mins and wake up with the worst headaches. But yeah..this nap was good :). I felt refreshed and energetic.

We had a good dicussion in class today on Slavary and its effects on contemporary politics. Although I didn't learn anything new cause I have been reading sooo much on this topic and issues surronding it, I got to demonstrate all that I new through class participation. It really affirmed what I know and helped me flesh out all the ideas in my head. I think the teacher is sort of impressed with me. At times he asks me to teach the class more about a particular topic we are discussing. Although I originally considered this putting me on the spot.....I think its pretty cool now.

After class, I went to work. I got to work a bit early but I got to talk more to my boss. She showed me the cutest new puppy that she is getting. I was so jealous hehe. The puppy was so adorable. Right now, my boss is looking up African names for the puppy - cause its an African breed...I forget specifically which one. But I think its fasinating how my boss is so intruiged with African dogs. But yeah...its cool cool.

Anywho, at 3:30 I was off of work and I headed out to get my hair braided...here is a pic. It turned out pretty neat I think. What do you think baby?




The girl finished my hair at 5:30, and by that time I was scheduled to meet Sherley at the gym. I worked out with Sherley from 5:40 to 8pm. Then I ran to the staff office to grab the pager - cause I was on duty. I was on duty with Nikki so naturally we sat there and talked together for like hours. We hadn't seen each other in like a month - even though we are on the same staff, so it was nice to catch up with her. After talking and doing rounds, I grabbed dinner, came back to my place and ate. I had veggies with rice and a cookie. ugh..I am soo full, but I'm glad I ate.

Anywho..today was a good day baby. It was busy again. I am just counting down the days till your return. In 15 weeks we will be back together again and preparing for our adventures in Spain. I can harldy wait. I love you. Meantime, please pray for me - pray that I do well on my midterms!!

A New Day and its Accomplishments

So I woke up in a good mood. I had a deep deep sleep and a good dream about Tamu. But honestly I don't remember what happened in the dream at all. Anywaz..I just know I was happy. It is a big thing for me, cause I am not a person a typically has happy and uplifting dreams. Good sigh...I felt like the Lord really calmed my heart about everything this morning.

I woke up late however. I was supposed to get up and eat a good breakfast, study and pack my things to get picked up by Neil on his way home from work. I was joining the family for Bible Study. Neil was came at 7:15am and I woke up at like a little bit after 7:00 so I was in a little rush to say the least. But all was good...my morning was still cool. We stopped and ate breakfast. Then I got home, said hi to everyone and went straight back to studying. After prayer, I went back to studying, and then I permed, washed and trimmed my moms hair for her.

I eventually got dropped back on campus and I accomplished the following things:
1) I updated my resume and sent it out to 5 law firms
2) Did my weekly RA report
3) Studied more
4) Worked out at the gym
5) Blogged it :)
6) Wrote my rough draft for my English paper due Monday
7) Prepared to face another week..
8) And had prayer

It was a day full of more accomplishments. Yep I am determined to be ok. This is going to be a tough 3 months to come..but I am just going allow the Lord to improve me even more.

Studying...studying...and studying

So Friday up until now was somewhat boring but full of accomplishments. I studied all of Friday evening for my Business Government Midterm on Tuesday. Then I fell asleep late Friday night and woke up at 6am to study more. Then I fell asleep around 8am and woke back up again two hours later to study more. The entire Saturday was spent studying for the test, with the exception of two hours, of which were spent talking to my bro.

So my brother has a long commute to school everyday. He goes to Bunker hill and home is in Hyde Park. So yeah it is a bit away. So my brother got up early and got all the way into school, but his teacher conveniently decided to not show up for class. So yeah that was a bummer to say the least. He called me at around 12:30 and said he wanted to stop by my dorm, eat and chill. Around 1:00 Neil got to my place and said he didn't want to get something to eat anymore, so we just sat and chilled in my room. It was the first time he saw my dorm, and he really liked it. Little did he know...it looked terrible just yesterday. I had cleaned it up on Friday. It was so messy that everywhere I stepped..I was sure I heard something else break...hehe..I know..so sad...Anywho..the important part was it was sparkling by the time anyone saw it :).

But yeah, we talked about everything from relationships to personal insecurities, strengths, and weakness. Neil just vented about things...it was good stuff. From our disscusion one thing that we concluded is that a person in a relationship should not try to change their partner into something their not. When you're in a relationship a critical question to ask yourself is can you live and love the person just the way they are? If not..thats a sign that you need to "cut them out" as my Mumu would say...but yeah one of many conclusions....

Due to my day and night of just hittin the books hard, I had not even thought about food at all. And it was already around 2:00 in the afternoon that I started to think about it in the slightest. But, yeah I am not too rational when it comes to things like this. Like usually when a person is hungry they get up and get themselves something to eat. But I was so lost in what I was studying and then what I was talking about with Neil that I didn't get up and get anything substantial to eat. My brother got hungry too and asked if I had any snacks in my fridge. All I had were tangerines and great tasting cookies that Tamu's step mom made. So I snacked on a tangerine and Neil finished the rest of the cookies that were left. hehe..I had a large container of them, and he thought that they were so delicious that he couldn't stop eating them tehehe.

So we finished talking at around 2:00 and when he left I went right back to studying. Yes indeedy. I studied my heart away. I then had the urge to talk to my Baby so I texted Mu and asked if he'd be online later. He said that he wouldn't be able to get online but he would call me in a couple of hours. So I went back to studying and eventually concluded that I probably should get something to eat. By that time it was around 4:00 or so..so got up, took my nose out of my book and went to the cafe. I had a slice of pizza and a plate of vegetables. I don't know why..but lately I've been craving so many veggies. It's quite weird..because I never crave this many veggies. Anywho...I suppose its a good thing every once in a while :P.

When I came back to the dorm I got a call from my Baby and we talked and talked. He was soo tired though..so we couldn't talk as long as I'd like. But the positives are I heard homeboys voice :). So that was great. But after talking with him, I went to the gym and sat on the bike while studying - which has been my habit lately. I also ran on the treadmill for 25 minutes!! I think this is so cool cause I either usually get too bored to be on there for so long or I just wind up too winded before it comes to 25 minutes. But now I can do 25 minutes without blinking. I have been running that long on the treadmill the entire week, and my goal is to move up to 3o next week.

I fell asleep fairly late. Nothing special happened the rest of the night into morning.

Settling back in to things

So I've been trying to busy myself and settle back into my routine of things. Its been hard...cause well when I get sad I sleep a lot hehe..so yeah I have been sleeping more than anything this week. But I have been doing a little better day by day...

On Saturday, I did homework and prepared to go and sleep home again. Neil picked me up on campus after his class and then we stopped out to eat and drove home. We had McDonalds. It was sooooo goood. It was my first meal of that day so it was delicious. Well I had fruit for breakfast..but that didn't count..so yeah anywho.the food was sweet!.

When I got home I was supposed to go out with my Moms and Trina shopping, but I just got caught up talking to Neil again. So I decided to stay home. And, on top of wanting to stay for the good conversation, it was soooo cold outside..so I felt amazing in the warmth and didn't want to leave that. But yeah, me and Neil talked for hours and hours again. We listened to music, sang songs together, shared fun things we found throughout the week until my moms and sis came back home.

After that I hung out with Mom while she made soup. And then I fell asleep. That night I dreamt about mumu. I wanted to hear his voice all throughout my sleep, and as I when I was waking up on Sunday morning, sure enough..my phone was ringing.....my baby was calling me. I picked up and was able to wake up to the sound of his voice. It was very nice to hear that he was still good, safe and doing well. Every-time I hear from him its like I can take a breath again. Sometimes I get so worried about him being safe that I get all emotional and what not..so it was nice to be at ease :). We talked and talked and when he had to go, I helped prepare the house for worship.

It was beautiful to be at home and praising the Lord with my family. We had a great Bible study on the God's plan of Salvation. During this lesson, we got quizzed on how we would go about talking to an unbeliever about God's plan of Salvation and then we had to produce the most effective scriptures to support what we said. It was good and thorough.

After that we all sat around and ate, laughed, and had fun as a family for hours. It was sooooo fun...it was the best thing that had happened that week by far :)..besides hearing from babes of course.

After that my brother and I went driving to pick up stuff. I decided to stay home another night and went to get more stuff from campus. After that it was homework and then sleep. I sat up and read all night. I felt good.

The start of this week was alright. I had proctoring on Monday even though it was a Presidents Day, then I had homework to do. I studied for my Tuesday's exam - which I aced, and then I ate a good full dinner with veggies and rice. After that, I came back to the dorm and took the nicest, longest shower ever!! I felt amazing and fell asleep. :).

At around 4 am I woke up and studied more for my exam which would be at 8:00. Then I decided to take my flash-cards and go to the gym to get some exercise in at around 5:30am I felt good! I got to class half and hour early and just sat and reviewed my notes. After classes I came back and started cleaning my room....and then I GOT TO TALK WITH BABY!!! Woooo. We talked for like an hour. I was so happy. Until it was near time for him to go..I got so sad..I cried....boo

I know...I need to be strong. I felt so bad for crying..but I just felt so alone at times and stuck on wishing his major hadn't required him to leave. But my baby comforted me and I said a prayer and regained my composer throughout the rest of the day. I went to the gym with Sherls and tworked it out!!! wooo. It felt great. We laughed and had soo much fun. Yo that girl is becoming my sister for real! Anywho..I don't think I have laughed that hard for so long. I must have burned like 100 calories just from laughing. My stomach was so sore when our time at the gym ended.

But, after that I came back and ate a great dinner (baby, I ate a veggie burger cut up and mixed with veggies and rice - u should be very proud of me :) ). Then I finished homework and blogged it, like I promised you.

Mwah

Now its late and I'm so tired. I have to prepare to get up early for the gym and go to my dental appointment that I have at 3:00pm today. I LOVE YOU AND I MISS YOU and thank you so much for that message you sent me today. It was the sweetest thing to hear.

To the Lord whom we love, bless us and continue to have your hand on us. To my pecan smoothie...you and me babes...mmmmwwwwwaaaaaaahhhhh. Speak to you soon.

Since you've been gone

Well, lets see...wow its been so long it seems since I've written anything. hmm..ok..

Well since Tamu has left, things have been a little tough. I'm not going to lie. I have missed him so much! I haven't had a whole lot of time to talk with him but I have talked with him and that makes me happy. I am so glad that my Baby is doing well and most of all SAFE. WOOoo that was a worry of mine. I always get nervous about planes and locals in distant lands. But God is really blessing him to get the most out of his experience there and for that I am happy.

This past week has been very very long. Ugh..it has felt like a month actually. hehe..even my mom said..."see vicky, tamu will be back in no time, its already been a..." she looked shocked as she looked at the calender and exclaimed "a week?..wow..I thought it had been much longer." Lol it was funny that she felt the same way as me. This week has been very long, no joke. Sigh. But the positives are that in 4 months I will see mumu and things will be back to normal.

This week I tried to take my mind off of missing him by spending time with my family. I slept over what must have been 3 nights out of the week. Being around my family always makes me feel better. I loved being home. And its quite insane how I always get a better sleep on the aro bed my mom got for me than the bed my tuition pays for here at NU hehe. But what can ya do..home will always beat NU dorms and everything in it tehe. Anywho..back to my week...so Monday and Tuesday, I carried on like normal. I actually thought things were going to be alright. Then Wednesday and Thursday came and the missing mumu hard time came. And boy was that tough...I missed him so much that I tried to call the number he gave me and when I couldn't reach him I listened to voicemails I saved from him just hear his voice. That made me feel a much better, but what made me feel even better was me showering him with love through tons of emails. hehe. I must have sent like 10 emails to him just saying hi, asking tons of questions and loving him. It felt good to know that he would know just how much I love him. He gave me the sweetest valentines gift before he left for Ghana and I just wanted to let him know how special he was to me. For Valentines day my Baby got me a white gold heart necklace with a diamond. It was the most beautiful thing ever. As mumu would say "oh how I love shiny things" but hey...what I can I say...I just do. I couldn't stop smiling the day I got it. While mu was in Portland he had gotten it and sent it to me hoping that it would have come on V-day..but it came the week he was in Boston instead. After debating whether to open it then or the next Thursday, mu told me I should open it that night. So I did. It was so sweet!! It was so nice. I couldn't stop smiling for the whole night :).



That night we went to see a movie and then the night after that we went to this fancy mexican restaurant on mass ave. called "Masa". It was a beautiful place..but I wasn't too fond of the food. Mumu of course loved it hehe. But I am a picky eater so I just ate two appetizers..which was a sort of dumpling thing. I am a huge fan of DUMPLINS..its like the greatest eatable thing ever! hehe. Anywho..I loved my V-week. hehe..Thats right..I felt like the entire week was a long Valentines day. It was great to spend time with my Baby.

So back to Wednesday and Thursday of the actual V-day calender week. That Wednesday I had proctoring like usual, did homework and then went to sleep. Then on Thursday I just went to class and work and packed to go and sleep home again. I was able to get the nicest surprise and hear from my Baby on Valentines day so that was an amazing gift by itself. You have to understand that I am going from talking to mu every day to hearing from him the first time for that week. So that made my day to say the least :).

At home I spent all night talking to Neilly. It is always so nice to talk with my bro. We talked and laughed all night until 6:20 am. Yeaha....it was crazy...I fell asleep at 6:20 and had to wake up at 7:00 for my 8:00am class. I know I know..it was insane. But I was awake and lively as can be, cause Neilly made me feel so much better. Anywho.. that morning...my mom and I wound up leaving the house late so I missed my 8:00am class. I didn't get to campus till 8:30am, and I would have gone if the teacher didn't let us out crazy early everyday. We always get out at 9:00am when the class is supposed to get out at 9:50 am. So anywho..that was bummer because it was African American studies - which is my favorite favorite class. But eh...it was cool. I went to my second class - Business Government and was bored out of my mind. I actually had to think about fun things I had done throughout my entire life just to stay awake. It was crazy! hehe.

But yeah then after that I went to get my hair washed at the hair shop near my home. They did a great job by the by. Then my moms picked me up, I ate dinner and my Dad drove me back on campus. Then I went to my meeting with ra staff at 8:30pm and then went out with Ingrid, Ana, allison, and two other girls that I just met that night.

Ingrid had invited me to this ball event that the Kappa's threw at the Hyatt Hotel. So I got dressed in my famous purple dress and went over to West Village A to get ready with the girls.


We looked good, but didn't have much of a good time. It was nice to be out though for a bit anyway. Me and Allison - the girl on my immediate right went home very very early hehe. But it was good, her an I stuck together for the night and had a good time.

After that I came back..and took a picture for my babes....mwah for you hon.


Then I was off to sleep...it felt so good to finally be back in bed..good sigh..

Some Postives, some Blues, then some Postives again.

Ok, so, here I go trying to recap a week in short paragraph. Ok...so the first thing that happened was I continued to workout every consistatntly. Yep thats right. I worked out every morning last week - actually except for Thursday, but I made it up by going in the evening with Sherley. So all was well. I checked off tons of things on my todo list like, things with the dentist, talking to teachers, meeting with my boss, and preparing for Tamu's return - ON SUNDAY WOOOO! Yep thats right, MY BABY will be holding me as of this SUNDAY AFTERNOON! I am soo excited! So yep. :) That is a HUGE PLUS. EVerything else could go wrong, but the fact that my Baby is coming will keep me happy :). MWah to you honey.

Let me take a couple of sentences just to show how much I have prepared for home boy's return. 1) I have called out of work for the entire first week of February. 2) Since I proctor every week, I have found someone to take my Proctor shift for Wednesday night of that week so that i don't have to be away from my Baby for 4 hours. 3) I switched duty nights with one of the people on my Staff so that I can be off duty for the week. 4) I completed 50% of my homework (a week ago) for work that is due Next week. 5) I have washed clothes that he has kept storing in my room since his departure. 6) I have brought some suitcases home so that my room can look less cluttered for his arrival. 7) I have coordinated with Family members so that we can give him a goodbye party (that he knows about..don't worry..im not spoiling it by putting it here ;P) and last but not least 8) I have been prepareing myself physically for his return, thats right..im in my prime and I am GLOWING :) Which every girl wants to be doing when they are going to see their man - whom they haven't seen for so long. Yep thats right, I want everything to be PErFeCT so that we can get the most out of the time we have together. :) So I still have to finish up the other half of Next week's homework and I will good..good to go!

But aside from the return of my Baby, I have not so good news. So you know the filling I had done last week?! Well it came back to bite me right in the butt cause the doctor put it too close to a nerve. I was in severe severe pain all of Saturday night into Sunday. As soon as I got off the phone with Tamu, I had so much pain in my mouth that I not only couldn't sleep, but couldn't hold back tears. I started crying and called my parents and told them that I am in so much pain and I don't know what to do. My Dad came immediately and took me to the emergency room where they gave me the strongest medication EVER! It was crazy....but it took away 80% of the pain. SO that was good. After that I agreed to sleep home with my family. My Dad took me back to my dorm before going home to get some things that would make me feel more confortable while I was at home..so I grabbed a couple of books to read, and my pilliow with the pillow case of my Baby. That made me feel better. I got medicated for all of Sunday and slept for what turned out to be 12 HOURS. lol. Probably more too...im just rounding off. hehe. But yeah, it felt good. I talked with my Baby some on the phone and he encouraged me that I was going to be ok. My parents made me soup and hot cereal since it was the only thing I could eat. And Trina and Neil just sat around and talked with me to keep me company while I layed on the couch the entire day half drowzy and dizzy from the medication. I threw up a couple of times cause I was so dizzy, and then slept my way right into Monday. As soon as Monday I took off to the dentist (at 10 am cause I had talked with him on their emergency phone the night before). But when I got there, I found out that he had an emergency and couldn't come in till 12:00...and then other crap happened) UGh...anyway..to make a long story short, I conferenced with another dentist and then my doctor came in to do what came to be a root canal at 2:00 that evening. I was in soo much pain..I thought i was going to pass out. But, with God as my helper, I made it through.

Tamu prayed for me/with me over the phone. And it felt soo good! It made me feel so relaxed and I was just so at ease when he did that with me. MWah to you Baby once again.

So after my mini operation, I was back at home sleepy as heck. I tried to sleep more but I couldn't cause I kept getting dizzy. So I walked around in an attempt to feel better. And it eventually worked. Meanwhile, my wonderful mom went out and got me a blow up bed so I didn't have to be subjected to sleeping on the couch - which probably was my source of headaches. The blow up bed was soooo comfortable, it was unbelieveable. And at this point my teeth and head was feeling much better. So I called Tamu and we talked while watching Bushes State of the Union speech together. We did this until I got tired and then I went to go lay back down on my beautiful blow up bed :). We then talked some more till he had to go eat dinner. So I hung out wit my bro and we laughed and talked for a while. We joked while he cooked dinner and then we joked some more while I watched him eat...since I couldn't eat myself cause of my sore mouth :(. But all was well. Later I talked with my Baby once again and we said how much we love each other, and then I took my shower and headed off to bed.

It was a glorious sleep. I smelled delicious and felt amazing :)

Lord Jesus, thank you for perserving me once again, and thank you for making Victorious despite everything :)

The Blues....

So....today wasn't such a good day at all...but yeah..let me start with the past weekend.

Friday into Saturday I cried so much. I know..I know..I'm such a punk! But I couldn't help it. I missed my baby so much. I needed his touch, his hold, his kiss, his comfort. I needed to talk to him and to see him. I needed to share the weeks past joys with him. But I couldn't. I was very heart broken over that fact, and I hibernated in my room once again.

I have been going to the gym a lot lately. I have lost 8 pounds so far. During the week, Sherley would call me and want to go to the gym, so I would reluctantly say fine...and go with her in the evenings. They have been good workouts even though I didn't want to do them in the beginning. Its amazing how much better I feel after working out. I get to think about all the good things and how much Tamu loves me. I get to study notes from my best class...African American Studies and as a result learn more than I can even imagine. I get to listen to soft music that clears my mind, and last but not least I get to talk to Sherley who always makes me laugh and makes the time go by so much faster. Working out every morning and every other afternoon for another week has been good :).

I have had a million things to do as of late. I have needed to do programs, homework, work, workouts, schedule family time, do reading just for me, and make time for residents within my residential hall..some of which have depression issues. Oh and make dental time for myself. Its been a lot at times, and I have been slightly stressed out.

This past Saturday, I finally made it to the dentist to get my teeth cleaned. Now anyone who knows me, knows I have this GINORMOUS fear of the dentist. Every-time I go I swear they treat my gums like its a sidewalk...and just scratch carelessly at them and subject them to excessive bleeding. So yeah..I'm just not a fan. Anywho..I managed to muster up enough courage to finally go. My heart had hurt so much over Tamu not being here, that I figured I could take whatever pain they could inflict. I thought, whatever pain they could inflict on me would be much less then the pain of not being with my baby. If I could survive him not being here...I could do ANYThing! I figured that I should schedule the appointment while I was in this mood. And I also rationalized that I want to have teeth when I get older lol. Anywho, I got my teeth cleaned and I was blessed to have a wonderful dentist. He was very gentle and helpful and cleaned my teeth well. As my baby would say.."he gave it the love it deserved." So that was the good side of things....The bad side starts with the news that I had 3 cavities. I had One large one and 2 very small ones. So I rationalized the same way I did for the cleaning. Thats right...I marched back there on Monday at noon and got the big one filled. On this Saturday I get the two other small ones done. It was cool and fast. And I got a white filling so that you can't even see it. It looks like they did nothing to my teeth...although..it definitely feels like they did. :(. Anyway..after this.. I will have gotten all this out of the way. Oh and another plus is that I have been flossing a lot. :)

So yeah Thats how the week started with my mouth in pain. I kept taking every pain killer I could find. From tylenol, to Aspirin, to more Aspirin, to Motrin. Motrin of which is the only thing that really truly worked. Up until today, my mouth has produced so much pain that I have been unable to sleep. I have had to sit up and try to stay awake as long as I possibly could. Monday night..I had to get up and walk around just so my mind could be taken off the pain. Today I took a mid day nap and it was the same senerio. It was too painful to sleep. So I popped in two more pills and I finally was able to sleep in peace. Meanwhile..while this whole mouth pain was going on, I developed strong paralyzing pain around my kidneys. It got so painful that I had to stop walking and I had a hard time breathing. The pain was so survere I had to leave class and go to the health center for an emergency. The doctors looked at me and signed me up for an ultrasound at the hospital on Friday so that they can make sure I don't have a kidney stone or whatever. And then I got some chest pains. Sigh..Ugh.just another thing on my plate I have to worry about. There were two doctors counseling with me. One said that it just could be me working out muscles that I haven't for a while, while the other said that I need to checked immediately. So..yep..thats where I'll be 10:00 on Friday. This sucks!! Truly!! Ugh. But oh well. God willingly its nothing. I was feeling so down and in pain all over...So I called my baby to feel encouraged. But yeah..it only brought me more tears. At that point I was completely and utterly stressed, and I had no words of encouragement. :(.

So yeah..that was me today. After drugging up, I took a long nap, and then got up in time for my Staff meeting at 9:30pm. After the staff meeting, I met sherley at the gym and we worked out for only an hour and 1/2. It was nice and relaxing though. I was just in a straight-up mood. Like if anyone said anything to me that was bull...they would surely know about it. tehehe. Yup that was my day. It's about 12:50 in the morning and I should be doing homework to get ahead..but Im tired..so I am going to shower and get into bed.

So since I had all these negatives...the positives are: I got into Spain for Summer 2 semester, I did really really good on my African American Studies quiz today, I survived the days disappointments and Im doing alright, and Jesus has never stopped loving me.

The Start of a New Week

So...lets see. Well Monday started off with a snow storm. The city declared it an emergency and canceled all day and evening classes at the University. Which is crazy by the way, cause if you new Northeastern, you would know that they NEVER...I mean NEVER close. So yeah, I was quite amazed. I actually couldn't believe it and woke up 3 times just to check my text messages to make sure I saw correctly. (since the whole Virgina Tech thing happened Northeastern now sends text messages to every students cell phone in case of emergencies). I think its quite useful. This way I don't have to check the news and wait hours just for them to go through each of the schools names that are closed. Ugh I hated those days. Anywaz...back to the bottom line..which is I GOT sLeEp! and a day off from classes. I didn't wake up until 11:00. I set my alarm to wake up early to go to the gym. But I didn't even hear it at all. Ever since my baby has been gone..I have been sleeping so deeply..that I don't even know what is going on. hehe. One of my residents was pounding music last night...and they were like "im soo sorry Vicky.." And im like "sorry for what..I didn't hear nuthin." and she was like "we were right next door to you.." and I was like "really..wow..well I guess u lucked out this time.." I thought it was as quiet as a bug hehe. Anywaz...back to the reall issue hehe...I got to relax on Monday.

As soon As I woke up I did some writing here, then I went to the gym, ate lunch, and then did homework the the entire rest of the day. Oh wait while eating I watched an episode of Big Shots..which is my third or fourth favorite show. But yeah. In the middle of my homework, I tried to take a nap but I kept opening my eyes and looking at my baby's computer, so I got up and surfed the net and then did more homework.

Having my Baby's computer here is so theraputic for me. Its the latest version of the Mac and it is great! Everytime I see it, it reminds me of him and just reminds me that he is here with me :). I never thought I could have this connection to a computer but I do. Anyway..having it...I just want to do the things I always saw him doing on it..like watch political lunch and international news, and read as much as I can... I love his computer...I love him. Mwah to you Baby!

So yeah...by around 1:00am........Yes..i was up that late. I just wasn't tired. Anyway, at around 1:00am I called Tamu and we talked on the phone for probably an hour or so. It was so great to hear his voice. It made me soo happy. :). So in a short I believe Im doing better. Each day gets a little better. Last night we agreed to say that he will be home in 3 weeks rather than 21 days. The three weeks sounded a lot better. :).

So Tuesday - today..started out really really well! I woke up at 5:00am, I packed my stuff and went to the gym. I worked out until 7:30, and left in time enough to grab breakfast and print out a paper at the library. I was even able to get to my 8am class 10 minutes early. It was a great morning. Everything was just so organized. So that was good. I had a good class and like I predicted..i was the only one who did the reading and had anything to contribute in class. I mean it wasn't everyones fault..the teacher didn't send the reading until like 10 or 11:00 last night. I just happened to read the whole thing cause it was so interesting. It was about Fredrick Douglass. It was written by David W. Blight who is now a professor at Columbia University. David Blight focused on the emancipation as the source of national regeneration. It was a beautifully written essay. Some of the inspiring quotes are;

"History [is] a primary source of identity, meaning and motivation. [Douglass] seemed acutely aware that history was both burden and inspiration, something to be cherished and overcome. Douglass also understood that winning battles over policy or justice in the present often required an effective use of the past."

Douglass commented:
"for it is not well to forget the past...Memory was given to man for some wise purpose The past is....the mirror in which we may discern the dim outlines of the future and by which we may make them more symmetrical."

Good sigh...isn't that beautiful!? And it is soo true. I have not heard it put better. Don't you want to keep reading!? And I had a chance to read all 30 pages of it! So needless to say..I may enjoy this stuff :). I am so much happier with my classes this semester. I dropped acting..cause it was Wack!! and then i dropped computer science cause I want my baby's help with it so I can get a straight A! So yeah I replaced it with Business Government and African American Studies..and I LOVE IT! YEY.. In my next post I will tell you of even more exciting quotes and go into my opinion of them :). So besides that...I am here at work right now its like 2:50. So yeah this afternoon will just be hmk hmk..maybe walk and hmk. Oh and can you believe it baby, my staff meeting got moved to 9:30 at night cause some knuckle head decided to have a late class. Sigh. eh well..what ya gonna do!? I will be back soon. Got to go actually do work :P

BABY I LOVE U!!!

My weekend

This weekend was pretty good I must say. It was very productive and I got to talk with my Baby of course. This made me happy despite my overall sadness that I can not physically hold him right now. But at the moment, I am doing much better with that sadness.

On Saturday, I hibernated in my room ALL DAY. I know it was crazy. I haven't done that since hight school, hehe. And even then it wasn't total hibernation by myself because there would always be family coming in and out. But yeah, Saturday was my alone time seriously. I woke up around 10:00am and then I took a refreshing shower and sat down at my honey dips computer and began to work. (btw honey dip is another one of the names I have for you my mu - mu) :). So yeah I worked on hmk for Contemporary Black Politics, Business Government, and then English and African American Studies. Meanwhile my baby got on meebo, and we were able to video conference chat while I worked. While I worked on homework, he worked on his RA re-application. It was great! I felt him with me the entire time. We laughed and made faces at each other, and blew each other kisses and gave each other electronic hugs hehe, and we talked about current events. It was good stuff. I learned that in the biotechnological field, scientists have already started experimenting with human reproduction of animals. Yep thats right...its crazy!! I had no idea, but scientist already have human female hosts that have been injected with animal sperm. Another words, they have human females trying to grow gorilla and chimpanzee babies. It is a hot mess in my opinion. It is quite terrible. UGh! But yeah that was something just interesting to gross you out. haha. But yeah the issue of debate was whether or not the biotechnological field should be loosely or tightly regulated. I think that laws should restrict a lot of the research that is going on or that biotechnology wants to conduct in the future - such as cloning and breading animal babies from human beings. I don't think that the field of biotechnology is capable of regulating itself at all in terms of its conduct and ethics. But the author of the article thinks other wise.

Anywho...after that we talked and worked and talked and worked all day. Until like 6 or 7 in the evening. Then my baby finally told me to go eat and I did at the dinning hall. There I ran into a couple of my residents and had to eat with them cause one girl kept pressing :(. hehe. But yeah it was nice..I just wanted to eat alone though. Anywho..I came back to my baby and talked with him till he had to leave. His Dad was coming to pick him up and he was headed to a lacrosse game and snow-shoeing. Which was exciting. Check out his blog to see/read. But yeah..I did something bad..and I cried when he left. I couldn't control my tears at all. Sigh..All day I felt that he was right here beside me so much so that I forgot he was away physically. So it caught me off guard when he had to go...and I cried. I felt so bad for crying..I didn't want to make you sad honey..just know that I love you and I miss you and I am doing alright. I may cry at times...but I am holding up and waiting for you! MWAH. I am so happy that I have forever with you. This way we can make up for the time that we are away from each other. mwah.

But yeah after that episode..I pulled myself together..completed my homework, and headed off to the gym at like 9 or so. I had a great workout. I worked out for 2 1/2 hours. It was really good, and made me feel better. Then I came back and took a nice long shower. After that I surfed the net some and found some awesome jobs btw..baby I will send them to you. I found some for both of us..as backups :). And then when I couldn't hold out anymore I went to sleep. It was a good rest.

Sunday - I woke up at 7. I woke up to some knuckle heads prank on a student. I don't even want to say the prank to give anyone else ideas. But the point was I was sooo angry....and yelled at the girl and the boys that were involved! I even scared them to high heavens by telling them of the possible repercussions. And this was while I was still part sleep walking lol. What!? 7am on a SUNDAY is EARLY! shoot! Anywho....after that episode...my Dad came to pick me up and take me home for Bible Study. I got home at like 9am and Bible study doesn't start till 11:45, so I talked with my Bro for an hour...and found out about the restart of his relationship, and then I went jogging for 45 mins.. It felt nice to jog around my home area. I hadn't done that since I was a sophomore and now I am officially a senior.

So when I came home I showered and my mom taught me how to season chicken. (I have been taking lessons on how to cook from her so that has been going well). Then we had Bible Study and a family meeting about finances. At around 3:00 I drove Trina and Neil to the mall and we all laughed and joked. It was good to be with them. It really showed me that the reason both of them were acting hostile (for lack of a better term) towards me was because they really missed me. So yeah...:). As my Tamu would say "oh...when family loves you." hehe. After that we came home and I ate dinner and talked with my mom. We talked and then did homework together. I brought out my business government book and jumped on her bed to read, and she brought out her managerial accounting book and studied on her desk. It was nice to do hmk with my mom. She out lasted me though, cause I fell asleep until 10:00 - when I had to leave. My brother drove me back on campus and we talked more about his relationship..so that was good. I am excited for him. I just want him to allow the Lord to lead him and for him to be happy and in love like I am. It felt good to know that he was in love and could feel some of the stuff I feel. So that was great. He was SOO HAppY! So i was elated to see him full of life again. Anywho..after that I did some net surfing...talked with my Baby on the phone and we both said goodnight at around 2:00am.

To the Lord, thank you for everything, please continue to sustain me and draw me closer to yourself, and to my Baby, I love you SOOOO mUCH! A BILLION KISSES AND HUGES.

I went to sleep on the pillow case of him and fell into his arms once again.

Another day without my Mu mu

So today was alright. To tell you the truth, this week has been going by soo slow since all I have been doing is thinking of when my Baby returns. I can't even find the words to say how much I miss him. Today his gift for me came in the mail. Before he left he ordered me a big blanket with a picture of us stitched in it and he gave me a pillow case with a picture of him so that I could feel like he is right there holding me even though he is away. I must say that it is the best bought gift I have ever received. When I am cold I get to wrap him around me. And when I sleep or hug my pillow I get to fall into his arms. It feels wonderful.

So every night this week me and Mu have talked for 3 hours on the phone. The first night we just talked until my phone battery ran out and then we talked through google chat. Then last night we talked on the phone and played chess against each other over meebo. And let me tell you that he won by default..cause I had to go eat and the game was timed....and yeah...I just suck at chess haha. But I love playing it with my Baby no matter how bad I am. Then we watched Desperate Housewives together on Abc. That is my favorite show.

Yesterday I went home to sleep. I needed to take my mind off missing Mu so much, so I thought being around the family would help. I had a good time at home. I laughed with and joked with my family for hours. My brother and I finally talked. Since I have been living on campus we have seemed to talk less and less. At one point I even thought he didn't like me anymore. But yesterday I found out that he was always distant because he missed seeing me so much. So that was cleared up hehe. Me and him talked for hours upon hours yesterday. This morning he even wanted to grab breakfast with me and talk more. That made me happy. Yep last night was pretty good if must say so myself. The only bad thing was that there was no food in the house. I know..ridiculous! So I had to drive to McDonalds at like 10:30 at night cause it got to the point that I was starving. lol...sigh..I know..its so sad.

Anywho, today has been good. I got back on campus at 8:30 this morning and had enough time to get ready for my writing class at 9:15. Then after that class, I grabbed breakfast and chilled until my second class - Contemporary Black Politics (which is a good class by the by..so far anyway). After that I went to work which was slow. I got to talk to my Baby :) which was the highlight of my day.

Then...I had the horrible interview. I applied to go to Spain during the first part of the summer so they called me in for an interview. yeah...lets just say the interview was horrible! It was unprofessional and the teacher was mean and rude. She bashed my spanish speaking and said I was doesn't think I should go pretty much. Yeah so that sucked but you know what?! The Lord is good, my life is full of blessing, I have a great family, and I have a wonderful handsome man that loves me more than I could ever imagine. So you know what I say to that horrible interview?!..."pah". (note: this was after encouraging and inspiring words were said to me by my huby.) Thank you Baby kisses and a huge squeeze.

So I got to talk to my Baby for the next two hours after the interview. When he had to go, I took a short nap and then wen to do office hours since I was on duty. Then I came back to talk to my honey bunch some more and when he had to go again I did hmk. And took a short walk to return our movie rentals from last week. Anywho, I am back in my room doing hmk. I have a lot of energy weirdly enough, but I think I will go to sleep at a decent time tonight so that I can workout in the morning. (by decent time I mean 12:00-12:30am as opposed to 2:30am) hehe.

But yeah thats all in the life of vicky today. To the Lord, thank you for guiding my foot steps yet another day, and to my Tamu, I love you with all my heart. I can't wait to fall into your embrace tonight :) MWAH

oh and p.s. I'm sure that I want to spend the rest of my life with you aswell

First Day without my Baby

So today was my first day without my Baby. He left to go home at 6:45 this morning. I went with him to the airport at around 5:30 or so. It was so sad seeing him leave. I miss him soo much. I miss his smile, his touch, his laugh, his eyes. I miss all of him. He continually sent me messages throughout his trip and that helped me get through the day so much. Tomorrow we are going to send each other lots of messages again and watch a show online together :)....

Sigh..I can't wait until I get to squeeze my baby again.

Yesterday and Today

First, I am sorry I didn't write something yesterday. Even if it is one word, I want to get in the habit of always writing something. Yesterday wasn't all that bad. It was actually pretty good for the most part. I mean I went to work for 3 hours. Then my boyfriend came and sat with me at work for some time, and then we visited my mom at her job for a bit. And then we went back to my room and just hung out. We got to squeeze each other until I had to go to my RA training at for an hour. After that, mu and I picked up some dinner at Boloco and then we went to see Alien VS Predator at the theater. After that movie, which rated a C in my book however was still scary, we decided to stay and see another movie. We saw this comedy that kinda really sucked. It sucked so bad I forget the name of it to tell you the truth. But yeah, after that we called it a night. And that was that.

I acomplished a good amount yesterday. I finished writing essays for my RA re-application. I had Tamu call the doctors to figure out some things with his traveling shots, I organized my online calender, and I organized and updated my online todo lists. I know...its not a whole lot..bit nevertheless it was something.

The one bad things that happened. It started yesterday and has leaked into today. mu's old friend - thats a girl came back and wanted to hang out with him. With me it is not a jealously thing, but the fact is...I just don't like her at all. Both her and another one of his old friends that is female disrespect me and treat me like I'm someone who doesn't exist. But yeah anywho...back to the current issue...the current issue is, I don't like her at all! Mu has stopped really being friends with them because of how they are and that makes me happy. But right now she is back in town, they are hanging out today and the bottom line is..that every time I see her I feel hurt at what happened before. Every time I think of what happened before I feel horrible. Mu once asked for my forgiveness for the things that happened and I once gave it. But forgiveness is easier said then actually practiced. I believe that I have forgiven him but I am so scared that I will get hurt again. Anywho..only time will tell....

Meanwhile..I am annoyed and sad.

I cried before I fell asleep last night. Part of me was sad over past and possible future, part of me was sad over him leaving me for 6 months in less then a week. And the other part of me was so sad over me being / feeling alone again. Sometimes I just feel so alone. Here I am a Christian young lady that is going places and going to do big things...and I feel alone emotionally, spirtually, and physically at times... sigh.

My conclusion is that I need to pray more and spend more time with the Lord! Jesus Christ always looks beyond my faults and provides for my every need. So prayer and Bible Study is what I'll do.

My first Post

This is my first post!! I am very excited to start keeping an online diary. I think that it will help me in dealing with everything that is happening in my life. Right now I am preparing to spend 6 months without my lover and best-friend. He is first going to his home in Portland Oregon for a month and is then going to study abroad in Ghana for a while. I am so sad that he is going, but at the same time I know that what he is doing is very important. Going to Ghana will help strengthen him in so many ways. He will have the chance to see where his ancestors came from, and immerse himself in a culture that he is unfamiliar with. This trip will help him to furthur understand his history, appreciate his present, and give more purpose for his future. This will be a great trip for him, and although I will be very very sad, I will be very happy that my love will have this wonderful oppurtunity.

So yeah, thats the biggest thing right now. The other things tend to take care of themselves as long as I keep God first in my life.

The other things that will be happening in my life is; doing exceedingly well in classes this semester that is starting in a week, traveling to Spain in the summer, taking GRE's for Grad school, applying for Grad school and hopefully getting this job that I have wanted ever since freshman year of college, spending more time at home with my family - particularly my Mom and Dad, and remaining healthy.

This semester I am taking two of my hardest classes. So imma need to be soo focused!! My boyfriend in the midest of everything some how convinced me to go to Spain for the summer. Well, firstly it has always been my dream to learn to speak Spanish fluently so logically, traveling to a Spanish speaking place would seem like a great step. Yeah, I got that, but um...yeah I'm just a little scared of traveling by myself to another country. You know specially since I have never been to anothe country. So yeah, thats my issue with that. I mean the good side to this, besides me learning Spanish of course and being in another country other than the States is that I will get to travel with my lover in Spain for some time. I will be in Spain for two summer semesters and he will come join me in Spain from Ghana for one of those semesters. So in a nut shell...it will be fantastico!!

Now on the matter of graduating college, I am so a happy that my time in undergrad it almost over. I already have a great job waiting for me, all I need to do is worry about getting into grad school and I'm all set. Praise be to the Lord! woot woot!! lol. God is good ALL the time. I am so grateful for everyone's prayers, and Gods unconditional blessings.

And lastly I will definitely be spending more time with the family. I will need their support even more now that my bestfriend is leaving for 6 months. I will hang around my mom more so she can teach me things than can sharpen my skills. Sigh, this will be a tough semester.

I pray that the Lord keeps me and continues to bless me. I pray that the Lord will keep the love of my life safe and draw him closer to Himself. I pray that the Lord will bring my man back to me, and our relationship will be even stronger than when he left.

So what can I say but this semester will be somethin else. :) This diary will help in more ways than one....