Yesterday and Today

First, I am sorry I didn't write something yesterday. Even if it is one word, I want to get in the habit of always writing something. Yesterday wasn't all that bad. It was actually pretty good for the most part. I mean I went to work for 3 hours. Then my boyfriend came and sat with me at work for some time, and then we visited my mom at her job for a bit. And then we went back to my room and just hung out. We got to squeeze each other until I had to go to my RA training at for an hour. After that, mu and I picked up some dinner at Boloco and then we went to see Alien VS Predator at the theater. After that movie, which rated a C in my book however was still scary, we decided to stay and see another movie. We saw this comedy that kinda really sucked. It sucked so bad I forget the name of it to tell you the truth. But yeah, after that we called it a night. And that was that.

I acomplished a good amount yesterday. I finished writing essays for my RA re-application. I had Tamu call the doctors to figure out some things with his traveling shots, I organized my online calender, and I organized and updated my online todo lists. I know...its not a whole lot..bit nevertheless it was something.

The one bad things that happened. It started yesterday and has leaked into today. mu's old friend - thats a girl came back and wanted to hang out with him. With me it is not a jealously thing, but the fact is...I just don't like her at all. Both her and another one of his old friends that is female disrespect me and treat me like I'm someone who doesn't exist. But yeah anywho...back to the current issue...the current issue is, I don't like her at all! Mu has stopped really being friends with them because of how they are and that makes me happy. But right now she is back in town, they are hanging out today and the bottom line is..that every time I see her I feel hurt at what happened before. Every time I think of what happened before I feel horrible. Mu once asked for my forgiveness for the things that happened and I once gave it. But forgiveness is easier said then actually practiced. I believe that I have forgiven him but I am so scared that I will get hurt again. Anywho..only time will tell....

Meanwhile..I am annoyed and sad.

I cried before I fell asleep last night. Part of me was sad over past and possible future, part of me was sad over him leaving me for 6 months in less then a week. And the other part of me was so sad over me being / feeling alone again. Sometimes I just feel so alone. Here I am a Christian young lady that is going places and going to do big things...and I feel alone emotionally, spirtually, and physically at times... sigh.

My conclusion is that I need to pray more and spend more time with the Lord! Jesus Christ always looks beyond my faults and provides for my every need. So prayer and Bible Study is what I'll do.